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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 2, 2017 10:29:53 GMT -6
December already...whoa! How is everyone doing?
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Post by ap21ril on Dec 3, 2017 22:13:36 GMT -6
Crazy! This year went by so quickly. I feel like it goes faster and faster the older I get. Fingers crossed for your beta tomorrow (right?) orangehibiscus!
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 3, 2017 22:22:42 GMT -6
This year has flown by ap21ril! Yes, my beta is tomorrow. I'm hoping it's negative or at least really close to it! How are you?
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Post by obscureference on Dec 4, 2017 6:46:56 GMT -6
Last day of femara for me today. Just realized this TWW will be right at Christmas so hopefully I will be distracted.
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Post by sunshiney on Dec 4, 2017 9:27:01 GMT -6
*TW* Loss and possible BFP {Spoiler}Today is 11DPO, and at just the right angle and light I feel like it's possible to see some kind of hint as to where the 2nd line would be on the Wondfo, starting at about 3 min...but I may have line eye...DH correctly ID'd where the line would be but thought his eyes were playing tricks on him too, but that was like 20 min later so I'm all freaked out that it's an evap or our imagination.
I had the same experience in all three of my losses, on 11DPO I thought there might be something but no one else saw it and I could not possibly call it until the next day it was really (barely) there....
I know this sounds like a BFP but honestly guys I have been at this for 9 years and I think only looking at 100s of BFNs has made me super sensitive to anything (even an evap) that might be there...
Trying to stay calm and focus on work today. Realizing that I'm not only afraid it's a BFN, I'm afraid it will just end in loss and I am so afraid to go through days or weeks of fretting every moment over whether a pregnancy is viable.
I'd love prayers or happy thoughts for peace and patience, and of course for a healthy LO if that's what's happening here!! Thank you!
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Post by ap21ril on Dec 4, 2017 9:43:21 GMT -6
I have my CD10 u/s on Wednesday. Took my last dose of clomid last night, and take Gonal-f tonight. Hopefully IUI later this week?
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 4, 2017 13:59:23 GMT -6
FX obscureference! I hope your US looks good and that you get to do your IUI this week ap21ril! TW Beta, Loss, and Vent Guys...I'm so tired of this. Beta is 21 today. It was 20 last week. This was a CP for crying out loud! Why can't I have a regular MC like other people? It's bad enough that I MC in the first place, but my betas just don't go down like they're supposed to. I don't want more Methotrexate, but that's what will happen if my beta keeps going up. I'm so frustrated! Sorry...vent over. End TW
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 4, 2017 14:00:19 GMT -6
FX so hard for a darker line tomorrow sunshiney! Let us know what happens. Prayers and hugs girl.
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Post by sunshiney on Dec 4, 2017 14:01:28 GMT -6
orangehibiscus Oh, I am so sorry. I am so frustrated for you. This is really unfair! Do they have any ideas? Have they seen this before? I hope this week was a fluke and the next beta drops!
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Post by obscureference on Dec 4, 2017 16:56:03 GMT -6
orangehibiscus Ugh I am so sorry that your betas aren’t cooperating. That must be so frustrating. sunshiney FX for you!! ap21ril I hope your IUI gets done this time around!
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 4, 2017 18:13:44 GMT -6
Thank you sunshiney. RE is out today, but will be back tomorrow. Of course, there is a possibility of Methotrexate. I asked about doing another beta on Wednesday, and the nurse seemed hesitant, but said she would talk to the RE tomorrow and then call me. They have not seen this before, and they have no idea why this has happened again. Thanks obscureference! TW Loss I talked to my boss as a friend, and she suggested that I talk to someone about what I'm going through. I'm not thrilled with the idea, but I know I'm not handling this very well. With my last loss, the RE's nurse told me they have someone who could talk to me about all this. I didn't need to then. When the RE's nurse calls tomorrow, I'm going to ask about talking to someone.
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Post by ap21ril on Dec 4, 2017 21:23:11 GMT -6
orangehibiscus ugh I'm so sorry about the betas. I think it's a great idea to talk to someone. And hopefully the RE can figure something out. sunshiney fingers crossed so hard for you!
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 4, 2017 23:01:33 GMT -6
Thanks ap21ril. I hope the RE can figure something out too.
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 5, 2017 16:11:57 GMT -6
I talked to the RE's nurse today. I will have an US done locally tomorrow. If that doesn't show anything, then I'll have a beta on Tuesday. Wednesday I will go up to my RE's office and have an US done at MFM (they have a better machine), and I'll have an appt with the RE right after that. That plan may change depending on tomorrow's US results though.
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 5, 2017 16:12:16 GMT -6
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Post by sunshiney on Dec 6, 2017 7:27:11 GMT -6
orangehibiscus I'm glad you're open to talking to someone about all this...I hope that really makes a difference for you and brings more peace! *TW: Loss Mentioned* {Spoiler}I thought I'd seen the faintest of lines on 11DPO, but 12DPO was the same thing...maybe a tiny hint of where a line would be but literally on only 1 out of 20 possible angles of looking at it, and I realize that this is my first experience with evap lines. I'm a little crushed. With all three losses, there was a clear line by 12DPO, so I'm sure this wasn't a BFP. Got very sad yesterday but already rebounding and feeling better perspective, that's it's normal to take more than 2 cycles trying and it doesn't mean anything devastating.
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 6, 2017 19:46:08 GMT -6
I'm so sorry sunshiney! Big giant hugs. ETA: I'm kind of skeptical about talking to someone. I've never been big on sharing my feelings with strangers about personal things. I'll see how it goes though.
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 6, 2017 19:50:48 GMT -6
TW Loss
So I had an US today, and I have a mass outside my left ovary. It's pretty big at 2cm long and about 1cm wide. It has no blood flow though. The US tech said if it had blood flow, then she would basically guarantee that it is the ectopic. I had my US late, so the RE won't get the images until tomorrow. Maybe the Cytotec I did stopped the blood flow? I'm not sure. I'll hear from my RE tomorrow and see what she thinks.
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Post by obscureference on Dec 7, 2017 7:01:32 GMT -6
I’m sorry sunshiney. orangehibiscus I hope they have some definitive answers for you soon. Does this mean you’ll still go for another beta?
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 7, 2017 7:58:12 GMT -6
I'm not sure what the plan is now obscureference. Hopefully I'll hear from my RE's office soon.
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 7, 2017 22:33:30 GMT -6
TW Loss
So, I talked to the RE's nurse today. The RE has no idea what the mass is, but doesn't think it is ectopic since it doesn't have any blood flow.
I had another beta today, which was 17. I'll have another beta on Tuesday. We'll travel to the RE's office on Wednesday for another US (not at MFM due to their schedule), and have an appointment with the RE on Wednesday morning.
The RE wants to do hysteroscopy and laparoscopy a week from Monday to look for retained products of conception and to take out the mass.
RE's nurse said even if my beta goes down to negative, I'll still have to have the surgery to take the mass out. So, I get to have surgery in 10 days.
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Post by hoosiermama76 on Dec 8, 2017 0:02:31 GMT -6
orangehibiscus, I’m sorry you have to have surgery and that your numbers are so frustrating. I’m glad they may have found something that they can fix so that maybe you won’t have to ever experience this again. hugs! sunshiney, I’m so sorry you have those evap lines. I am glad that you are rebounding though and getting back at it. 🤗
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Post by obscureference on Dec 8, 2017 8:01:55 GMT -6
orangehibiscus Ugh that is a lot to deal with. I assume they would have seen this mass before and that it is a new development? I really hope the surgery solves these issues for you and I really hope this is the last time this happens. Hugs.
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Post by wisco on Dec 8, 2017 13:14:23 GMT -6
orangehibiscus - Holy moly, lady. You are going through SO MUCH. I am sorry. I know we all keep saying that...and I wish there was more we could do... I hope you get some answers, and some resolution. I'm a big fan of ALLLLL the therapy, so if you think talking to someone will help, even a smidge, do it. I know that we only see the smallest snippet of what you're going through here, but the fact that you're here and you're moving along through this fiasco shows how strong you are.
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Post by ap21ril on Dec 8, 2017 14:31:20 GMT -6
orangehibiscus I am so sorry. I wish there was more to say to help. Big hugs to you. sunshiney sorry for the evap lines. Glad you're doing okay! I had 2-3 follicles at my u/s Wednesday, and IUI this morning was uneventful. Beta is 12/22, so it would be a great Christmas present haha. I did have a probable cyst at the u/s (my RE office doesn't require baseline u/s and I had waived mine this month with Christmas and knowing it had been fine last month), I guess I won't do that again. They weren't concerned since the worry would be that it would interfere with other follicles developing and that obviously wasn't the case, but still, I'll definitely not waive it again just in case.
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 8, 2017 17:42:53 GMT -6
Thanks hoosiermama76. It is a lot obscureference, and I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed by it all plus work. This mass was not there on my ultrasound from 4 weeks ago, so it's new. I hope this solves my issues too! I hope the RE can figure out why all of this has happened and is happening! Thank you wisco. This is all so overwhelming. I feel guilty about having to take off work to have surgery because it makes everyone else's life harder. I would love answers and resolution. H and I will meet the counselor on Wednesday. I hope she's good. This board and y'all in this thread are such an amazing support system for me, and I need it all right now. Thank you ap21ril! Yay for 2-3 follicles and that IUI went well this morning. Sorry about the cyst, but I'm glad it didn't impact your treatment. I have absolutely everything crossed for an early Christmas present for y'all!
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Post by sunshiney on Dec 11, 2017 7:58:58 GMT -6
ap21ril I'm so glad that potential cyst didn't stop great follies from growing! Hoping for great news for the holiday! orangehibiscus Praying for a safe, simple surgery, clear answers, and total resolution. I'm sure you'd be glad to take on some extra pressure at the workplace for a few days while a coworker needed a med procedure...it's a good thing to prioritize your health and if you think they're the type not to feel that way, then poop on them.
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Post by wisco on Dec 11, 2017 8:29:15 GMT -6
Two follicles at my monitoring ultrasound this morning. An 18 on the left and a 19 on the right. Triggering tomorrow night and IUI on Thursday morning. This is our 4th cycle (this go round) and it feels different...less hopeful? Maybe I’m just more zen about not having any control over this process? My official test date is December 28th, so I am sure that any zen that does exist will fly out the window by Christmas.
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Post by orangehibiscus on Dec 11, 2017 8:33:00 GMT -6
Thank you sunshiney! My coworkers will gladly take on the extra burden, but it makes me feel bad to put that on them. Yay for good follies wisco. I hope your IUI goes well, and I really hope this is your cycle!
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Post by obscureference on Dec 11, 2017 14:21:18 GMT -6
Well I’m getting frustrated. CD14 and no sign of a positive OPK. I don’t enjoy paying for meds and monitoring that are doing absolutely nothing. Ugh. I wonder how many times he will increase my dose.
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