TTC 7/30

[sammysam]

This is a combined TTC thread for EVERYONE currently TTC. Whether you're a first timer, a many timer, or an old timer come on in and pass the time as we struggle through WTO and the dreaded TWW.

As this is a combined thread there will be talk of LC, losses, and IF struggles. If any of these are hard for you please just let us know in your first post and I'm sure the lovely ladies on here will be happy to add TWs to accommodate. 

Feel free to add a little intro to help us get to know you better;)

Please come join us!

Month/Cycle:

Timing:

CD/DPO:

Symptoms:

RRCS:

[sharebear]

Month/Cycle: Too many. Year + trying, almost a year benched, on month 3 I think of trying again?

Timing: TBD n/a

CD/DPO: 23 n/a

Symptoms: Clomid rage, hot flashes, bloated/"full" feeling.

RRCS:Just impatient to see if the stair stepping of clomid worked. Also I'm traveling this weekend, so I hope we can get out timing figured out. Friday we have a monitoring ultrasound and labs. If we have some good-sized follicles, I think the plan is for a trigger shot. Which should put O at Saturday. I guess we will see? I'm very very impatient. Also I broke a crown on one of my molars and I'm anxious to get it fixed this week before we are in the TWW and I would be too nervous to get the numbing agent.

[notblanche]

Wellll maybe I'll sit here. We'll be actively TFAS this fall... I think... That scares me. But there's no time like the present?

Month/Cycle: 1/1

Timing: n/a

CD 7

Symptoms: n/a

[Radley]

H and I have officially decided to stop TTC. We’ll be pursuing adoption instead. I’m not in great health and tests aren’t helpful so far. We will continue trying to understand our future fertility and health but we are ready to grow our family and have decided this is our next step. Best wishes to everyone!!!

[sarahh]

Fx the stair stepping worked sharebear!

Month/Cycle: 2/2

Timing: -5, -3, -2, O, +1

CD/DPO: 23/6

Symptoms: None. So different from last month. So I'm thinking its also a bust but who knows.

RRCS: I am going to try to hold out to test until sunday or monday. My period is due on monday and I'm normally tempted by 8dpo so we will see.

[sharebear]

Radley good luck with the adoption process. I'm excited for this next step in your journey to grow your family. I hope to see you around on HIH. Or stop in to say hi to any of us who are hanging out here for a while

[sammysam]

Radley Oh I'm so thrilled for you guys! I'd love if you would still update on here as you go through the process if you feel comfortable doing so:) Wishing you so so much luck and hopefully a LO in your arms soon!

[sammysam]

sharebear FX for the Clomid this cycle. I would love to see all of you guys on that March/April BMB:)

sarahh The cycles I was pregnant were always the ones where I had no symptoms. Hopefully it's a good sign:)

notblanche Good luck! I hope it doesn't take too long once you guys start. Do you have any other LOs? If SO manages to talk me in to trying one last time we would likely start in the fall as well.

[sammysam]

Month/Cycle: If we do this again the next will be 18. 1 AL and 10 AL

Timing: I'm benched until September regardless so...nothing.

CD/DPO: Waiting for the bleeding post D&C to stop and then waiting for AF.

Symptoms: Still nauseous but it's getting better so my hcg must be starting to get closer to 0.

RRCS: I still have no idea what I want to do. DD does not want a sibling. She is very adamant about this. And she would likely be at least 6 by the time another one came along anyways. I am terrified of trying again. I really really don't know that I can handle going through this again. But SO really really wants a second. We've lived in different cities for work since DD was 11 months old...so he has no idea about parenting and I would be working full time while raising both kids pretty much on my own. We will hopefully be back as a family by Xmas this year but he still won't be around much and everything will still fall to me. I could do it. And I'd love to have another baby. I am just so scared that something will happen to me and DD will grow up without me. She has never been alone with SO. Ever. In her entire life. So the thought of me not being there...Plus we're old. And I get HG in pregnancy...usually from about 6 weeks all the way to delivery... so I can barely function when pregnant let alone work AND care for DD on my own. I told SO we could revisit it once we're all living together again and he sees how much it takes to just care for one. I have to figure out what is going to be best for our family moving forward. If it were only up to me I would be done at this point.

Sorry. Rant over.

[sharebear]

sammysam I can't help with anxiety about doing it alone (I'm solo during the week while DH works out of town), because I'm super scared too. I also was on diclegis starting at week 6 when I was pregnant with my son and in pretty rough shape for a while. But I have spent a lot of time thinking about the potential age gap between kids, if I GKU. Baby and DS would be 4-5 years apart. And I'm kind of glad not to potentially have two small babies/toddlers at the same time. Kids 4+ are so much more independent and helpful! I hope that makes the newborn and baby phases easier.
Re: DD being solo with SO - it might be a good idea to start trying to get them to have more solo time sooner rather than later, if only to give yourself a break!

[Yogurt]

:lurking as always:

Hugs sammysam, sending you love and strength as you navigate what's next for you

sarahh amazing timing as usual!

Radley that is very exciting! Best of luck to you!

[charliefox]

Month/Cycle: 23/7AL about the hit the 2 year mark, holy shit.

Timing: na

CD/DPO: CD1 should be today

Symptoms: na

RRCS: Well...it's official, BIG temp drop today so just waiting on AF and then we're on to IVF. Somebody hold me.

[charliefox]

Radley, moving forward is always exciting! I know it can be a long, trying, process so feel free to keep us posted if it helps you at all - you're more than welcome here <3

[charliefox]

sammysam, it is not an easy decision in the best of circumstances. I think you've given yourself a nice, fair, timeframe to get your family back together and see how you all feel. Obviously, we're here for you no matter what.

[loorin]

Month/Cycle:10/10

Timing:n/a

CD/DPO:10

Symptoms:none

RRCS: Got my CD3 bloodwork back and to my untrained eye it is not looking good. AMH is low .354 (I'm 31), FSH is high 24.6, LH is slightly high at 13.6. Estradiol and progesterone are normal. Not feeling warm and fuzzy at the moment. Waiting to hear from my dr now...

[sammysam]

charliefox Gah. I'm sorry. I was feeling so good about your chances of getting out of here before IVF. But regardless you are going to do AMAZINGLY WELL through this! We are all here to cheer you on and hopefully cheer you up!

[sunny75]

Radley, wishing you a smooth and uncomplicated adoption! My two nephews are adopted and they are such a blessing.

[sunny75]

Month/cycle: 7/8
Timing: Na
CD/Dpo: CD 23
Symptoms: na
RRCS: just feeling very blah. I skipped out on a family outing this weekend because my sister was announcing her pregnancy to all my aunts and cousins. I just couldn't deal with all the questions I would get about if we were going to have another one. But I have another family gathering with my in laws this weekend that I won't be able to get out of. I'm just hoping to get through the weekend without snapping at anyone!

[sammysam]

sharebear Thank you:) I agree that I'm actually liking the idea of a bigger age gap if we do end up TFAS again. Unfortunately with SO's hours there's no way to leave him alone with DD. They have been going to the park down the street from his mom's place without me for about a half an hour here and there. So it's a start. I'm hoping once we're back in one house it might make the decision clearer. I know SO will keep pushing for a second regardless. I might agree to TFAS for a certain period of time again...which is what I did the last 2 times. Both times we got pregnant right at the tail end of the time frame. But I'm just not there yet. Blah.

[radiantfate]

Radley wishing you the best! I hope your adoption plan goes well and your path to adoption goes smoothly!
sammysam I'm glad you're posting here again, but I know the decision you have to make is a hard one. If it helps, I'm not letting DD's opinions or age factor into our decision to keep trying. (DD does want a sibling, but also, she's 10 years old so the idea of starting at diapers again is...daunting. But worth it.) We're here for you no matter which decision you and your DH make!
sharebear So sorry about the clomid side effects. FX for you on your tests this week!!
Welcome notblanche!!
sarahh Good luck to you this month! I hope you get a BFP when you test
charliefox So sorry for the temp drop. I'm right there with you, cycle buddy.
loorin Sending T&P for you on the bloodwork results. I hope the doctor has some good advice for you.

[sammysam]

loorin Sorry you're not liking the looks of your numbers. Hopefully the doctor might have something positive to say.

[radiantfate]

AFM...

Month/Cycle: 20/20

Timing: None yet

CD/DPO: CD 2

Symptoms: All the cramps. All of them. Also I am so, so tired.

RRCS: AF showed up last night and she's raging in full effect today. Thankfully I'm working from home the second half of today so I can prop myself up on the sofa with my laptop and a heating pad with Netflix running in the background. I think I'm more bummed about this than I should be.

[sammysam]

radiantfate Sorry you're back at CD1. TTC is no fun.

It's more my fear than anything else that's stopping me from being ok TFAS again. Had I not gone through what I did last September and had I been able to safely miscarry on my own both times I might feel differently. I just feel a bit like I'm trading DD's right to a happy healthy family for the possibility of a potential second. But I might have one more try in me.

[sammysam]

sunny75 Sorry it's so hard to be around your family right now. I have a big family thing coming up in a couple weeks. I would have been into 2nd trimester and excited to go. But my mom decided to tell EVERYONE what happened while I was in the hospital having my D&C so now I'm definitely not going. I have no desire to have to talk about it all. Especially since most of my cousins have 3 or 4 kids. And most of them found out about September too (because my mom needs to tell my life to everyone in order to get sympathy for herself) and since I haven't seen most of them since last year I figure I'd just end up crying the whole time. So no thanks.

[beenthere]

Month/Cycle: 2/2

Timing: n/a

CD/DPO: CD 1

Symptoms: cramps.

RRCS:
Dammit. I was so sure I was pregnant.

[sharebear]

I'm sorry beenthere.

Sounds like a couple CD1s here today. Be kind to yourselves. And all the chocolate!

[sammysam]

Sorry beenthere I was so sure you would be out of here today:/

[sunny75]

Ugh sammysam, I think you're definitely making the right call skipping out on that. I would have a breakdown for sure! Crying in front of my family or especially my inlaws is something I'm really trying to avoid. im sorry your mom has been sharing with your entire family. I am worried about telling my MIL about our struggles because I feel like she would use it for attention for herself without really thinking about our feelings.

[sunny75]

sharebear, sammysam, I'm glad to hear y'all talking about the advantages of having children with a bigger age group. Ive already gotten a few comments about how I need to give my DD a sibling she can be close in age to so I've just been feeling a lot of pressure. I feel like people don't talk about the advantages of a bigger age gap and I think there are a lot of them! Especially after we waited so long to have my first DD, I don't rush the time I have alone with her. And we are happy with our family dynamics of just having one for now. So I'm trying to focus on that instead!

[sammysam]

sunny75 I totally get that. I told my mom I didn't want anyone to know and her answer was that she needed to tell people because they were going to wonder why she was in the city. Um. No. No one even knew she was here until she called everyone to tell them she was here. Family can be so frustrating. She's also the one whose first comment when I found out about the loss was "well you better start trying again right away". Thanks for the support mom.