Tlex
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Post by Tlex on May 14, 2018 21:39:05 GMT -6
charliefox doh! I didn't think of a fresh sample, for some reason I was assuming frozen. I will cross fingers, toes, even my eyes for you!
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Post by sharebear on May 15, 2018 6:30:17 GMT -6
Tlex I'm also on team eatthecake. This seems like a rough week for everyone. I'm catching up a day late and sent a whole lot of likes everywhere. I'm swamped at work right now but will probably be stalking and trying to catch-up at night. <3
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Post by Yogurt on May 15, 2018 6:31:48 GMT -6
I just want to hug everyone feeling sad! I'm right there with you. I'm pretty sure we got -1 and -3, which I actually consider really good ( remi) more so than -1, O or -1, +1. I'd think -2 and -1 would be my ideal if I could only have 2 times in the window. I also want to shield myself from all the pregnants. I literally snooze nearly everyone on FB. I don't even want to go near my old bmb and only do so when I'm really feeling ready. It's just too painful. I'm getting my blood drawn today for the progesterone. So that's something I'm looking forward to learning where I stand.
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Post by sunshiney on May 15, 2018 6:51:25 GMT -6
Month/Cycle: 7/2AL Timing: -3, -2, -1, Ox2 CD/DPO: CD22/6DPO Symptoms: Regular, pretty intense cramping/pinching pains. Fatigued. Massively bloated. But on Endometrin, this is my normal. RRCS: We got KU twice in our first 4 cycles so now I'm so impatient! Trying to calm down and not worry if it doesn't happen really fast. Also, can't shake this weight gain since our loss. Being on hormones makes it so hard, and I feel like an unpleasantly expanded version of myself.
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Post by sunshiney on May 15, 2018 7:05:40 GMT -6
Yogurt and remi I agree, having soldiers queued up ready to go is the key! I've even read that conception occurring when the egg is newly ovulated vs. near the end of its survival period (12-24 hrs) leads to lower miscarriage rates. That sounds like excellent timing. loorin CD12 is a fabulous, normal range O day! I hope this is your cycle, but if not, I'm glad you can get to the next try that little bit faster. sammysam Sending lots of love and support! There is such a roller coaster of emotions, it's too much to handle all in one neat package. Also, 9 months after loss is a lot to go through, the worries and frustration are really heightened when loss and age is added to the mix...I really feel you. I hope you get a bit of a break with renewed peace when AF arrives. charliefox Yay for small wins...those Femara headaches are no joke! I hope you guys get lucky with O while YH is available! Tlex Hugs!! It's so hard. For a long time I blamed myself for a miscarriage that happened after I had danced at an outdoor concert to the point that I sweat a bit - since the RE had said no aerobic activity. But the reality is that women do the things we do (dance, take meds) all the time especially in first tri when they may not realize they're pregnant and babies do just fine. So I've found the only way I can look at it is that we don't have the control over the outcome, it is something that happened to us but not something that we caused. I'm so sorry. I hope you have good news soon. I also hate seeing other PG women right now. I literally felt like kicking a pregnant coworker down the stairs the other day. WTF? That is NOT who I am!! But IF and loss are not easy to process.
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remi
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Post by remi on May 15, 2018 8:16:45 GMT -6
So I think if I'm basing O on temps it will tell me CD19 is when I O'd. I still have not had a positive OPK. So I would have -5, -3, -1 if that is the case. We did not HIO last night because I was in such a negative headspace. *sigh*
ETA: I only added the -5 because Tlex said that was a cycle she got pregnant with her DD, lol
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Post by sarahh on May 15, 2018 8:27:58 GMT -6
Month/Cycle: Not here quite yet
Timing: n/a
CD/DPO: CD1
Symptoms: Normal AF - cramps, starving, craving chocolate
RRCS: Next month after AF we will start Femara. I took progesterone last month to jump start AF and this month started on my own on CD29 so it seems that I'm back to my old schedule. This month I am going to take some OPKs mid month to see if I can pinpoint when I O.
I'm starting to get nervous but excited to TTC again. I am putting a lot of pressure on myself that this will be successful so I really hope it is and that I can keep my anxiety under control. I am also really scared of MC again but am trying to stay positive.
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Post by remi on May 15, 2018 8:35:50 GMT -6
sarahh, big hugs! I hope that this is your cycle. I know what you mean about the anxiety of it all. We are all here for you, I know it's easy to say to someone else to not stress or put so much pressure on yourself. But like people have said about. You are good enough as you are. TTC are a mindfuck. Be kind to yourself
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Post by Yogurt on May 15, 2018 9:40:28 GMT -6
Holy shizz between the progesterone and all the other stuff it was 17 full tubes of blood. I hope my answers are in those tubes. Or do I hope they tell me all is normal? Not sure which is better, lol.
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Post by purple on May 15, 2018 9:50:59 GMT -6
I'm relieved to hear other people say that TTC after loss is driving them insane. I mean, obviously I wish none of us were in that space, but it is a relief that I'm not the only crazy person. After two miscarriages and three chemical pregnancies I'm scared of getting pregnant again because at this stage there doesn't seem to be any reason why it should stick. But I'm still more scared (at the moment) of not having a sibling for my girl, so here I am.
Also, many many hugs from over the ocean to everyone who is having a difficult week. I came looking for this board in February, not that long ago. But I wouldn't have got through the last few months without all of you. I am sorry that you're here, and thank you for being here, and I'm praying for a lot of BFPs and sticky babies soon!
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Post by Yogurt on May 15, 2018 10:05:13 GMT -6
purple, I just want to say, I hear you. I've "only" had 2 losses/cp's, but I feel if I get another bfp, it will just look and feel like the first step of my next miscarriage. Like I can't even imagine getting excited really? I feel I'd feel hopeful but more scared and sick. But I really want another baby! So I'll keep at it.
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Post by wildhoney on May 15, 2018 10:26:15 GMT -6
purple I’m in that same boat of being so scared to get pregnant again. It’s so hard to manage all of these emotions; the hope that comes when a new cycle starts, waiting to O, the exhaustion from having to HIO on certain days, waiting to test, the disappointment of BFNs, or seeing a BFP and then being scared to lose it. Sometimes it all just feels like too much. I get what you mean at being too scared to call it quits too. It's all so hard, (big hugs).
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Post by sunshiney on May 15, 2018 10:31:27 GMT -6
Yogurt Yikes! I would have to say that either way would be good news - no problem identified, or some answers. Saying a prayer for you! purple I'd like to just put out there that I *thought* I got the full RPL work-up after my first three losses (a CP, a MC, and an EP), with no answers. But it wasn't until after another CP and another MC that the RE said there was further testing to be done - it's like $4,000 testing so they have to really convince the insurance it's needed, but it's basically a more complete genetic screening, and it's what found my PAI-1 mutation that causes clots to build up in my lining and the placenta and led to every one of my losses. It's quite treatable and it's sad to think we could have known earlier, but I'm also thankful to know now because we have good reason to think another pregnancy would be a rainbow. Just wanted to share in case you are in a similar position, with no answers yet. There are women with this particular mutation (especially if they are heterogeneous for it) who have gotten lucky with a successful pregnancy without treatment, too. Not that you would maybe necessarily have the same thing, but there are a range of additional miscarriage causes that apparently could be detected?
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Post by loorin on May 15, 2018 11:41:39 GMT -6
loorin Your timing looks great! And don't worry about fully formed eggs. I got pregnant last time with O on CD 9. Here's hoping the spotting is a good sign! Thank you for this - FF gave me crosshairs today which puts O on cd10. I was driving myself nutty looking at early ovulation pregnancy charts on FF and the earliest I was seeing was day 11. I o’d day 17 with my daughter and day 11 with my cp so naturally I’ve been dwelling on that... trying to answer the “why?” question I so desperately want answered. I’m hoping I can relax a little bit more than usual with this TWW.
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Post by purple on May 15, 2018 11:54:24 GMT -6
sunshiney, thanks. I'm in the UK so a very different situation re: healthcare. I've had all the tests available to me. Yogurt and loorin, I'm so sorry that you're also in the situation of being scared to get pregnant. It's not a good place to be. I've just been to see my GP about the fact that I haven't been properly well for months. He has ordered a complete set of blood tests to rule out anything physical, but he said that most of my ongoing symptoms are probably the consequence of depression and trauma recovery. Nobody has ever said that what I went through was medically classed as trauma. I can't say that I feel better because this is a bad depression week, but I definitely feel validated and much less like a pathetic waste of space. He referred me to a counsellor. Getting counselling on the NHS is like gold dust. I'm hoping that medical recognition will help, even if the results are gradual.
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Post by remi on May 15, 2018 13:16:43 GMT -6
purple, I'm happy that your GP has you on the right track now and that you are feeling validated. You are DEFINITELY not a waste of space at all. I'm so sorry you've been feeling so low lately.
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Post by shakinros on May 15, 2018 13:31:57 GMT -6
So, WTF ovaries. Went in this morning for a baseline ultrasound and labs to start this month’s cycle. Turns out it is CD4 and I have a single dominant follicle. Measuring at 15 already. RE thinks I could ovulate as early as Friday, which is CD7.
DH thinks he’s getting sick and has spent the afternoon in bed but I’m now feeling like if we don’t start trying tonight, we’ll miss yet another month cause my stupid follicle is over performing. No injectables because we’ve already missed the window to stimulate 2 or 3 follicles.
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Post by sunny75 on May 15, 2018 13:43:53 GMT -6
shakinros, That's crazy, I hope you don't have to totally miss out on this cycle. Have you ever had such a short cycle before? What did your RE have to say about you ovulating so early?
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Post by sunny75 on May 15, 2018 13:47:32 GMT -6
I had my baseline ultrasound this AM too. Everything looked good so I am cleared to start Clomid today. Now that the disappointment of the last cycle has worn off I'm starting to get excited! I hope this next month goes by so fast.
Also i forgot how long of a trip it is to my RE. Two hours each way is rough!
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Post by remi on May 15, 2018 14:13:44 GMT -6
So, WTF ovaries. Went in this morning for a baseline ultrasound and labs to start this month’s cycle. Turns out it is CD4 and I have a single dominant follicle. Measuring at 15 already. RE thinks I could ovulate as early as Friday, which is CD7. DH thinks he’s getting sick and has spent the afternoon in bed but I’m now feeling like if we don’t start trying tonight, we’ll miss yet another month cause my stupid follicle is over performing. No injectables because we’ve already missed the window to stimulate 2 or 3 follicles. Oh wow! That's really early! I hope you don't miss out on this cycle and your H feels better!
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Post by shakinros on May 15, 2018 17:51:11 GMT -6
shakinros, That's crazy, I hope you don't have to totally miss out on this cycle. Have you ever had such a short cycle before? What did your RE have to say about you ovulating so early? Never! It’s super odd. He communicated all of this info in a two minute voicemail so nothing was said about why this might be happening. I’m going back Monday to confirm ovulation happened so I guess I’ll ask then.
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Post by shakinros on May 15, 2018 17:51:49 GMT -6
Thanks remi. He seemed like he could feel better enough for sex when I explained what was going on lol.
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Post by Yogurt on May 15, 2018 17:58:31 GMT -6
So my progesterone is normal. I guess that's good. I have not yet heard about the zillion other things.
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Post by Yogurt on May 15, 2018 17:59:16 GMT -6
Thanks remi. He seemed like he could feel better enough for sex when I explained what was going on lol. Atta boy! The male giving it up on time is one of the most stressful parts of all this for me.
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Post by sunny75 on May 15, 2018 18:13:48 GMT -6
shakinros , That's crazy, I hope you don't have to totally miss out on this cycle. Have you ever had such a short cycle before? What did your RE have to say about you ovulating so early? Never! It’s super odd. He communicated all of this info in a two minute voicemail so nothing was said about why this might be happening. I’m going back Monday to confirm ovulation happened so I guess I’ll ask then. Well at least whatever happens with this cycle it will go by quickly. You might be in the TWW by next week!
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Post by sammysam on May 15, 2018 18:19:14 GMT -6
shakinros I had O on CD 6 a few months back. It came on the back of an abnormally long cycle for me (32 days vs my normal 23). I hope you get your sessions in;)
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Post by sammysam on May 15, 2018 18:19:56 GMT -6
purple I'm so glad your GP is taking your health issues seriously and trying to find you some answers.
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Post by sunny75 on May 15, 2018 18:20:09 GMT -6
Yogurt, I'm glad your progesterone looks good. Hopefully some of the other test will give you some answers. And +1 to the male's contributions being the most stressful part. I know MHworks a lot more than me but I still don't understand why it is so hard for him to make time for us to TTC. Like it's literally the only thing he has to do and it's the only fun part. So frustrating.
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Post by sammysam on May 15, 2018 18:23:16 GMT -6
SO came back from work today with a list of baby names. He pulled it out after I told him I wasn't sure how much longer I want to keep doing this. This is a BIG deal since we didn't name DD until a month after she was born. Looks like I won't be throwing in the towel after all. I can't give up on something I know he wants so badly. And deep down I do too. I just hate the process. On to cycle 9. I'm hoping we get lucky soon.
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Post by sunny75 on May 15, 2018 19:00:05 GMT -6
sammysam, That's so sweet. I would be so touched if MH did that. I'm glad you at least don't have to struggle making a decision anymore because you seem to have a more clear answer now. I'm hoping this next cycle is the one for you and then you'll already be prepared with some names! How were the names he chose? Did you like any of them?
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