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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 4:11:16 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 4:11:16 GMT -6
This is a combined TTC thread for EVERYONE currently TTC. Whether you're a first timer, a many timer, or an old timer come on in and pass the time as we struggle through WTO and the dreaded TWW.
As this is a combined thread there will be talk of LC, losses, and IF struggles. If any of these are hard for you please just let us know in your first post and I'm sure the lovely ladies on here will be happy to add TWs to accommodate.
Feel free to add a little intro to help us get to know you better;)
Please come join us!
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 4:32:42 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 4:32:42 GMT -6
Month/Cycle: 16/8AL...but pretty sure it will be 17/9AL by tomorrow
Timing: Was good but honestly at this point doesn't seem to mean anything.
CD/DPO: 26/11
Symptoms: Sore boobs. But I get that every cycle from 1 dpo so...nothing.
RRCS: Temp is inching down. It never drops until a day or 2 after AF shows so I'm expecting AF today or at the latest tomorrow. But my money is on today. I'm ok with it. I'm feeling like our loss pregnancy was likely our last shot at this and I don't really think it's going to happen for us. Just focusing on me for the next while. I'm still going to TTC but I'm thinking of sticking with the original plan. 2 more cycles then done. I'm not sure I want to keep going with all of this. And honestly I just want to get back to feeling like I'm living my life rather than waiting to get pregnant. I'll keep the RE appointment for now but if we're not pregnant by the date of the appointment then I'm thinking of calling it quits and just cancelling. My DD is amazing. I love her to bits. And I am totally fine with being OAD. So if I get to mid July and I'm still here I think I'm going to pack it in. Not sad at all. Just been thinking about everything and this is where I'm at.
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Post by remi on May 14, 2018 5:16:15 GMT -6
Month/Cycle: 6/5
Timing: no idea
CD/DPO: CD20/--
Symptoms: none
RRCS: No idea what my body is doing. Today my temp is slightly higher than it's been this cycle, but I still had negative OPKs yesterday. Took at noon and then 11:30pm (oops). So maybe O was last night? If that's the case it would have only been -3 and -1. So, not great. I'm still focused on my health and doing this diet/workout. I'm just sad.
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Post by remi on May 14, 2018 5:16:54 GMT -6
sammysam, I'm glad you are feeling good about being done, I really do hope that the next cycle is your rainbow.
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 5:45:39 GMT -6
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Post by obscureference on May 14, 2018 5:45:39 GMT -6
sammysam I’m right there with you. I know exactly how you’re feeling. Hugs.
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 5:52:03 GMT -6
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Post by obscureference on May 14, 2018 5:52:03 GMT -6
Month/Cycle: 23/23
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CD/DPO: cd 1
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RRCS: On to cycle 23. Last cycle was actually ok for me. I really focused on other things and tried to make TTC a secondary thing instead of obsessing about it and it worked. I felt much better and decided if it happens, it happens, but if not I will be ok with it. I’m not quite ready to throw in the towel, but it’s just going to be a side thing from now on.
FX for everyone in their TWW!
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Post by sunny75 on May 14, 2018 7:58:00 GMT -6
obscureference, sammysam, I hope both of you are able to find peace and happiness with whatever you decide! remi, That's so frustrating. But even if you end up with the -1 and -3 timing you still have a chance. Month/cycle: 5/6 Timing: N/a Cd: 2 RRCS: just glad Mother's Day and last cycle are over. I need a fresh start. Hopefully going back to the RE this cycle will make time go by faster.
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Post by wildhoney on May 14, 2018 8:14:23 GMT -6
Month/Cycle: 11/11
Timing: -3, -2, -1, O
CD/DPO: 20/7
Symptoms: Breasts are a little sore, mild cramping
RRCS: I feel like this isn’t my cycle and I’m feeling down about it. The only good part about it is that if it does end in a BFN, it will be easier to accept and move on.
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remi
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Post by remi on May 14, 2018 8:42:14 GMT -6
wildhoney, your timing looks really good! Everything crossed for you!
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 8:48:07 GMT -6
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Post by purple on May 14, 2018 8:48:07 GMT -6
Month/Cycle: 27 / 5AL
Timing: Terrible. H was away during my fw.
CD/DPO: CD21. Just waiting for CD1.
Symptoms: My boobs are always bigger and more painful in the second half of my cycle, gradually from O to CD1. So that's fun. Otherwise, nothing. Just waiting. I'm sure I'll start getting cramps in a day or two, because apparently cramps during AF is no longer enough for my body.
RRCS: This is the hardest time of year for me in terms of loss, depression and grieving. I'm trying to distract myself a lot, but the sadness is just there. If anyone is interested, I posted on the In Memoriam board yesterday, but be warned, it is sad.
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 10:24:01 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 10:24:01 GMT -6
purple Yes to the cramps! Why is that a thing all of a sudden? I had the worst cramps yesterday. None today but WTF? I only used to get them during AF.
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 10:25:40 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 10:25:40 GMT -6
remi sorry your cycle is messing with you this month. Maybe because you haven't been able to pin point O and stress about it this will end up being your cycle.
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 10:27:35 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 10:27:35 GMT -6
obscureference Sorry you're feeling the discouragement that I'm feeling. I'm hoping for positive things for both of us and that we're both out of here soon:)
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 10:28:21 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 10:28:21 GMT -6
wildhoney your timing looks good! Sending positive thoughts your way:)
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 10:50:28 GMT -6
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Post by purple on May 14, 2018 10:50:28 GMT -6
obscureference and sammysam, I'm sorry that you're both feeling so discouraged. It's so hard when it takes so long, and there's no escaping the cycle. I'm trying to fill my life with other things so that ttc is just part of it, and I'm succeeding to some extent, but that comes and goes too. I'm praying that you'll both be out of here soon, even though I'll miss you.
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Post by Tlex on May 14, 2018 13:24:51 GMT -6
@obscurereference sammysam hugs to you both, I very much relate. I feel drained emotionally and distracted from living in the present. I'm focusing on my weight watchers and BBM workouts now that I'm not sick anymore and feeling loads happier despite the feeling that AF is going to drop in at any second now. I have some big soul searching to do. I feel like I might be ready to throw in the towel. I don't know how I'm supposed to know when I'm done.
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Post by Tlex on May 14, 2018 13:26:18 GMT -6
purple hugs and so sorry it's a hard loss time of year for you. I have a time like that in late fall and I know what you mean about how the sadness is just ever present. Sending you so much love. I'm sorry the timing of this cycle was a bust for you guy.
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Post by Tlex on May 14, 2018 13:28:04 GMT -6
remi hmm very curious, I hope your chart shows at least some dotted line cross hairs soon ☹️ wildhoney your timing looks amazing and your symptoms are on point! I have everything crossed! I'm sorry you feel down and like this just isn't it.
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Post by Tlex on May 14, 2018 13:28:43 GMT -6
sunny75 hugs and on to the fresh start ❤️ I hope this is a better cycle for you guys
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Post by Tlex on May 14, 2018 13:32:40 GMT -6
Month 12, Cycle 1 AL
CD 31, 13 DPO, expecting AF tomorrow
Symptoms: crampy, sore back, and bloated!
RRCS: well I spilled my guts above. I'm thankful for a short cycle, a beautiful chart, and the progress my body made in other areas this month. I'm sad. I really thought this was it. I'm upset with myself for taking some non-pregnancy compatible meds last cycle and blaming myself for the CP. I know that's not right but that's where I'm at. I'm not sure I want to keep TTC. I don't want to see anyone pregnant or talk to them right now.
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 14:00:01 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 14:00:01 GMT -6
Tlex sorry you're feeling this way too:( I'm hoping good things are headed towards the members of this board soon.
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 15:03:06 GMT -6
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Post by sunny75 on May 14, 2018 15:03:06 GMT -6
Tlex sorry you're feeling this way too:( I'm hoping good things are headed towards the members of this board soon. Yes it's been a rough couple of days around here. We're definitely due for something good to happen!
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Post by wildhoney on May 14, 2018 15:07:05 GMT -6
sammysam Tlex I relate to being ready to throw in the towel. This is just so mentally exhausting. I've been thinking about how much longer I want to actively try and I don't think it will be for that much longer. A year feels like an eternity when TTC.
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May 14, 2018 15:07:26 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 15:07:26 GMT -6
Tlex sorry you're feeling this way too:( I'm hoping good things are headed towards the members of this board soon. Yes it's been a rough couple of days around here. We're definitely due for something good to happen! Sorry sunny75 . TTC can suck it this month! This next cycle will be the longest I've gone without getting pregnant. I know that 9 cycles is nothing for many people, but with our ages and the stress levels that SO lives at constantly I'm shocked we got pregnant at all last year. I can't believe it has almost been a year now since I last got pregnant! I hope AF just hurries up at this point. I don't want to have to keep waiting around for it since I know it's coming:/
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Post by charliefox on May 14, 2018 15:10:25 GMT -6
sammysam, I'm so sorry you are at the point where you need to make a decision. This ish sucks. remi, HIO just in case? wildhoney, I get being guarded, but yay for that timing! obscureference, I'm glad you've found a little zen in the middle of all the IF craziness. sunny75, I know it was a rough weekend for many ((hugs)) Tlex, I'm glad you're feeling better and so many hugs for all the other stuff. Month/Cycle: 21/5 AL Timing: n/a CD/DPO: cd8 Symptoms: n/a RRCS: Finished my Femara last night, I'm looking forward to tomorrow when any symptoms from it should be gone (headaches, fatigue). I'm a bit stressed about this cycle, monitoring U/S on Friday and will probably O this weekend which would be fine except that H has drill (Army) all weekend. Getting away for all the IUI stuff will be a total PITA. It's never easy, is it?
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TTC 5/14
May 14, 2018 15:13:25 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 15:13:25 GMT -6
wildhoney I've been trying to focus more on being happy with our family as is. This process has proven to not be nice to me mentally or physically. And DD tells me every day that she absolutely does not want a baby in the family. She wants a dog but no baby. She is very clear on this. So I'm planning on 2 maybe 3 more cycles. That will put us at 10 or 11 and will be a year since my last bfp. I am thinking at that point I'll go see what the RE has to say and then I will likely be done with it all. I need other things to focus on.
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Post by wildhoney on May 14, 2018 15:13:33 GMT -6
Month 12, Cycle 1 AL CD 31, 13 DPO, expecting AF tomorrow Symptoms: crampy, sore back, and bloated! RRCS: well I spilled my guts above. I'm thankful for a short cycle, a beautiful chart, and the progress my body made in other areas this month. I'm sad. I really thought this was it. I'm upset with myself for taking some non-pregnancy compatible meds last cycle and blaming myself for the CP. I know that's not right but that's where I'm at. I'm not sure I want to keep TTC. I don't want to see anyone pregnant or talk to them right now. Ugh, I'm so sorry Tlex. I know how you feel about not wanting to see or talk to anyone pregnant. I know that it's hard not to blame yourself, but it was not your fault. I think it's part of the grieving process to feel guilt. ((Hugs))
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May 14, 2018 15:18:06 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 15:18:06 GMT -6
charliefox sorry timing is going to be tricky this cycle. Hopefully it will all workout without too much insanity! I'm still struggling with trying to make decision. I know SO will be incredibly disappointed if I pull the plug but I just need to do what I think is going to be right for me moving forward. I might totally change my mind when we get to the RE appointment and decide I definitely want to go through with treatment but right now I'm feeling like 3 more cycles might be it for me.
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May 14, 2018 15:23:01 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 15:23:01 GMT -6
Tlex I drank some water that was contaminated with some chemicals accidentally when pregnant last summer. I was convinced that was the cause of our loss a few months later and still carry that "what if" around with me. Rationally I know that wasn't the cause. It's hard not to blame yourself. But I think we always will in some small way. Sorry you're feeling this way. I totally understand.
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May 14, 2018 15:26:07 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on May 14, 2018 15:26:07 GMT -6
Tlex I am also having a hard time with pregnant people right now. I think the more I think about calling it quits or the possibility of not being able to get pregnant again the sadder I get being around people who are able to get pregnant and have more than one child.
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