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TTC 9/17
Sept 17, 2018 0:28:27 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on Sept 17, 2018 0:28:27 GMT -6
This is a combined TTC thread for EVERYONE currently TTC. Whether you're a first timer, a many timer, or an old timer come on in and pass the time as we struggle through WTO and the dreaded TWW.
As this is a combined thread there will be talk of LC, losses, and IF struggles. If any of these are hard for you please just let us know in your first post and I'm sure the lovely ladies on here will be happy to add TWs to accommodate.
Feel free to add a little intro to help us get to know you better;)
Please come join us!
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TTC 9/17
Sept 17, 2018 0:39:09 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on Sept 17, 2018 0:39:09 GMT -6
Month/Cycle: We'll if AF ever shows it'll be 18... 1 after our 2nd consecutive loss.
Timing: NA
CD/DPO: 31...still waiting on CD1. My cycles are usually pretty consistently between 23 and 25 days so I'm a little annoyed CD1 hasn't gotten here yet.
Symptoms: NA
RRCS: I have been talking to my cousin who experienced a number of later term losses before having her rainbow last year. She is a few years older than me and seeing how happy she is now has made me less afraid of being pregnant again.
I told SO how scared I was of going through pregnancy once more and how I'm afraid something bad will happen to me and DD will be left alone without me. He said it was fine if we stopped trying. Which is what I wanted a while ago. But now I'm feeling very definitely in need of a baby. We were at the fair on Saturday and I kept seeing families who were either pregnant or who had a baby with them and I actually almost cried. Gah. I really want CD1 to show soon so we can get a few tries in before we start with the RE.
And I had a bad dream and can't get back to sleep which is why I'm writing all this in the middle of the nght:)
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TTC 9/17
Sept 17, 2018 4:20:21 GMT -6
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Post by purple on Sept 17, 2018 4:20:21 GMT -6
Month/Cycle:Month 32. Cycle 10 AL. Six consecutive losses in two years.
Timing: N/a
CD/DPO: CD1
Symptoms: Cramps. Nausea. Dizziness.
RRCS: I really thought I was ktfu. L is at preschool till three o'clock today so I've spent the morning with my feet up eating junk food. I'm really fed up of TTC mind games. I know that premenstrual symptoms often mimic early pregnancy symptoms because our bodies prepare for potential pregnancy after O. I am trying to be optimistic and see this as good practice for a real pregnancy, maybe this month.
This has hit H really hard. We were both crying this morning.
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Post by octoberrust on Sept 17, 2018 5:38:12 GMT -6
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Post by octoberrust on Sept 17, 2018 5:43:13 GMT -6
Cycle/month: 15
Timing: n/a
CD/DPO: CD 8
Symptoms: n/a
RRCS: Still just waiting for H’s repeat SA the first week of November, to see if the clomid helped his numbers. DS just started asking for a baby sister, so that’s been hard.
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Post by sarahh on Sept 17, 2018 6:27:56 GMT -6
I'm sorry purple sammysam, I'm terrified too. We have had a loss between each pregnancy and I feel like I'm setting myself up for heartbreak. I'm just trying to think positively but it's so hard sometimes. Month/Cycle: 4/4 Timing: -3, -2, -1, O, +1 CD/DPO: CD19/2 DPO Symptoms: n/a RRCS: I'm feeling good about this cycle but I felt good about cycle 1 so I'll just have to wait and see. I usually start symptom spotting and crazy googling symptoms around 8 DPO so fx I can keep it together this month.
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Post by charliefox on Sept 17, 2018 9:18:36 GMT -6
Month/Cycle: IVF#1
Timing: day 5 single embryo transfer
CD/DPO: 6dp5dt (=11dpo)
Symptoms: Progesterone gives me cramping, fatigue, and major anxiety.
RRCS: I'm not feeling very hopeful. I've been testing out my trigger, which stays in my system forever, and it's 13 days past trigger and still a faint line. It's clearly been getting lighter and lighter and definitely not darker. I've google waaaay too many trigger to bfp progressions so I know it could still happen but pretty sure I've always had a bfp by 11dpo. I did order more wondfos which will get here today and I'll pick up some FRERs too. I hate torturing myself with testing but betas are Friday and I want a definitive answer by then, I do not want to hear it first from the nurse....so I will continue to torture myself.
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Post by charliefox on Sept 17, 2018 9:21:35 GMT -6
sammysam, that's a lot to take in. I'm glad you're being open with your SO and continuing to keep an open mind yourself. Our feelings and emotions change and it's only fair that you give yourself time to figure it all out, no matter what the final decision is. So many hugs.
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TTC 9/17
Sept 17, 2018 9:39:03 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on Sept 17, 2018 9:39:03 GMT -6
purple I'm so sorry about CD1. I was so hopeful for you guys with all your symptoms. But hopefully they will lead to good things this next cycle:) octoberrust FX for good numbers! sarahh That timing looks great!!! And I hate that we have to be afraid of pregnancy now. I wish we could go back to being ignorant and blissful. charliefox I was hoping for an update from you:) I'm so sorry you're not feeling hopeful. Is the line significantly lighter than the day before? I know absolutely nothing about testing out triggers but I am so so so hoping that your line starts to darken by tomorrow. I know exactly what you mean about wanting to know before the betas on Friday. Being able to find out on your own terms at least allows us to celebrate and grieve in our own way and at our own pace. Sending as many positive thoughts as possible your way.
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TTC 9/17
Sept 17, 2018 9:40:43 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on Sept 17, 2018 9:40:43 GMT -6
Still no AF. Come on CD1. Where are you???? At this rate we'll be lucky to get in one cycle before the RE:/
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Post by octoberrust on Sept 17, 2018 13:13:41 GMT -6
I just got back from the doctor, BV and UTI. Frick! Guess I’m benched for this cycle unless I O super late.
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TTC 9/17
Sept 17, 2018 13:59:52 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on Sept 17, 2018 13:59:52 GMT -6
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Post by honda on Sept 17, 2018 18:49:47 GMT -6
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Post by nerdalert on Sept 18, 2018 8:57:52 GMT -6
sammysam Sorry no CD1 yet but glad you have the support of your cousin and DH. purple So sorry it wasn't your cycle. octoberrust Omg, so sorry for the bench. sarahh , FX'd for you {Huge Trigger}Pretty sure I lost the baby, early miscarriage. I started bleeding yesterday at lunch and my OBGYN fit me in. Folks know there isn't really anything they can do at this stage. They tried to give me hope that this is normal and took blood test for betas, and are asking me to come in for more labs tomorrow, which I will.
But I know. This isn't heavy, heavy like the docs keep asking, but it's normal for me for a period, it's constant, and my at-home test last night was BFN.
DH is coming home from his work trip, he didn't want to stay and I let it be his choice. I tried to get all my tears out late last night so DS doesn't notice mommy is sad. Glad my mom is still coming out so DH and I can take some time together.
EDIT: My doc called, numbers were too low so not going into tomorrow. Officially a chemical pregnancy. Month/Cycle: 2/2 CD/DPO: CD2 Symptoms: They all went away. I lost 2 lbs overnight. RRCS: First loss for me. Not sure how I feel, very confused and sad and yet not. Not sure what my cycle is looking like. I am having lots of feels about the timing of any future pregnancy.
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Sept 18, 2018 14:31:34 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on Sept 18, 2018 14:31:34 GMT -6
nerdalert I'm so so sorry. Feel however you need to feel. And if you need to vent or anything I'm here. You can PM me anytime. I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I wish no one had to experience loss. I know there are no words to make this any better. But know I'm thinking of you.
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Post by sharebear on Sept 18, 2018 17:50:57 GMT -6
I’m so so sorry nerdalert. It is a terrible thing to experience. Unfortunately it is one that a lot of us (myself included) have gone through. So ask questions. Vent away. Emote. Do what you need to do to be able to start processing it all.
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TTC 9/17
Sept 18, 2018 20:21:11 GMT -6
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Post by wineandcupcakes on Sept 18, 2018 20:21:11 GMT -6
Hi! I’m hoping I can dip my toes in here.
I’m wineandcupcakes. I was super duper active on TB and then on TCF. H and I have been together for almost 12.5 years and married for 6. We began ttc #1 when I was 30 in 2014. Despite temping, charting, OPKs it wasn’t happening. To make a very LONG story short, through fertility testing we found out I had Celiac Disease, a uterine septum that required surgery to respect, endometriosis and immune issues. It took 2 fresh IVF cycles, a move to another RE, another fresh cycle with immune treatment, a medication-induced menopause followed by a frozen cycle of two blasts using immune treatments to FINALLY get pregnant with and give birth two beautiful twin daughters. I also have a metabolic disorder that requires treatment when TTC and pregnant.
Anyways, we did a frozen transfer in May of our last embryo and it was a BFN. We began loosely trying last month with bad timing and decided to fully actively try this month. So, hi!
Month/cycle: 2/2
Timing: not sure yet
CD/DPO: CD 17...should ovulate between now and Thurs
Symptoms: N/A
RRCS: I can’t get my shit together enough to temp. OPKs are still negative so hopefully we will get better timing this month. I also have to do a lot better with my supps. It’s been hard to get back into the rhythm.
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TTC 9/17
Sept 18, 2018 20:31:17 GMT -6
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Post by Yogurt on Sept 18, 2018 20:31:17 GMT -6
nerdalert I am so sorry. I had 2 chemical pregnancies this year and it absolutely gutted me. I am so, so sorry.
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TTC 9/17
Sept 18, 2018 21:31:08 GMT -6
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Post by wineandcupcakes on Sept 18, 2018 21:31:08 GMT -6
Sorry nerdalert. I’ve been there and it really, really sucks. ((Hugs))
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Sept 19, 2018 5:00:11 GMT -6
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Post by sammysam on Sept 19, 2018 5:00:11 GMT -6
wineandcupcakes Welcome!!! Sorry your journey has been so difficult up to this point. But how amazing that it led you to your two girls:) I'm celiac as well. I hope you get out of here quickly but regardless the ladies here are amazingly supportive. I am heading to am RE in November and trying to decide if we should keep trying on our own or opt for an IVF cycle (we have had 2 losses in the past 2 years...one at 13 weeks and this past summer at 10) so I may pick your brain a bit on your experience if you don't mind sharing. I'm STILL waiting on CD1 so we can start our 1st cycle AL but my body does not seem to be cooperating. In any case, welcome, and I hope you get a positive OPK soon:)
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Post by sarahh on Sept 19, 2018 6:43:42 GMT -6
I'm sorry nerdalert. It definitely takes time to process and for some that is a short time and others years. I've done both. Definitely reach out to any of us as you need support. Welcome wineandcupcakes. I haven't been temping either because I can't remember. I even bought a new thermometer last month - still in the package haha. So I am not sure when I ovulated this month. I got a pretty dark second line on my wondfo on CD 15 and CD 16 then a lighter one on CD 17 so I put myself down for CD 16. I decided to take another one last night (CD 20) and it was pretty dark again. WTF. So I had to dtd again last night. I thought I was done for the month. I guess I'll take another one tonight to check. I probably should splurge on some better tests to better pinpoint but the wondfos are so cheap and I am sure I would go through a ton of them if I bought the more expensive kind.
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TTC 9/17
Sept 19, 2018 8:13:25 GMT -6
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Post by wineandcupcakes on Sept 19, 2018 8:13:25 GMT -6
sammysam - so sorry for your losses. I have done pretty much everything in the fertility world so feel free to ask me any and every question! sarahh - my wondfos are doing the same. It used to be clear: two positives 12 hours apart and then negative, preceded my increasingly darker lines. Now it’s several days of dark. I don’t get it. I have a new thermometer too - on my nightstand. I still can’t remember to use it!
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TTC 9/17
Sept 19, 2018 10:42:15 GMT -6
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Post by purple on Sept 19, 2018 10:42:15 GMT -6
nerdalert, I'm so, so sorry. Be kind to yourself and don't try to do too much, too soon. Several of us here have suffered losses so you're very welcome to talk about it as much as you need to. Or not at all. Welcome, wineandcupcakes. What a journey you've had! I hope TTC goes smoothly for you this time.
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TTC 9/17
Sept 19, 2018 10:49:55 GMT -6
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Post by purple on Sept 19, 2018 10:49:55 GMT -6
So something very unexpected is happening this month. I'm on CD3, experiencing cramps and heavy bleeding as usual. But I'm not depressed. For the first time since we lost Gracie Wren in May 2016, it's the beginning of my cycle and am not depressed. It's something that has been getting worse with each subsequent loss and also worse every month, as yet more time passed.
I'm trying not to be naive about this. I might wake up tomorrow feeling terrible again. But this feels like a major step forward in my healing.
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TTC 9/17
Sept 19, 2018 11:32:30 GMT -6
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Post by beenthere on Sept 19, 2018 11:32:30 GMT -6
Month/Cycle: 3/3
Timing: okay
CD/DPO:CD 22 8dpo
Symptoms: not a lot
RRCS: I tested and unfortunately it's a blue dye. I swear I see something but it's blue dye so I'm trying to not get my hopes up.. but it's so hard to not look for every single sign. It just barely worked out for DH to be home for me to ovulate and I really hope that's a sign it's supposed to happen so I'm putting too much on this for sure....
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Post by nerdalert on Sept 19, 2018 11:53:53 GMT -6
Thank you all. At the moment I'm just holding together til DH gets home and we can talk about how we feel and what we want to do next. The doctor said I needed to wait til after my next cycle to try, which may be at late as November she said, and we had talked about only trying til 2019 and then considering adoption again (what had been our first choice way back when originally, long story). So that leaves very little time to try again. I wasn't in a place where I could talk to doc and ask questions about why waiting, so if you have any insight as to why, I'd appreciate it. wineandcupcakes , I can't bring myself (EDIT) to temp, I don't have the motivation, so I feel you. You guys have had such a long journey, I hope it's much shorter for you this time. sarahh , it's hard to justify the cost of the more expensive O tests when you have to pee on them every day for what feels like forever. What's your typical LMP? purple , so happy to hear you are having a good day, and praying it's a sign for future healing. <3 beenthere , FX'd for you. Are you holding off til a later DPO or testing tomorrow?
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Post by honda on Sept 19, 2018 12:06:43 GMT -6
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Post by honda on Sept 19, 2018 12:09:26 GMT -6
Month/Cycle: 3/3 Timing: -4 thru -1 CD/DPO: 12 dpo, af day Symptoms: bitch is nowhere to be found RRCS: no af (yet) today and a temp rise this am. Wtf???? Test was bfn. I'd like to just move on please. Chart attached so you can see the nonsense.
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Post by honda on Sept 19, 2018 12:10:53 GMT -6
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Post by sharebear on Sept 19, 2018 12:13:36 GMT -6
TW: Loss
Month/Cycle: started TTC winter 2016, break/benched summer 2017 through winter 2018. Off bench March 2018.
Timing: -3,-2,-1,O,O+1
CD/DPO: 33/17DPO
Symptoms: I'm tired and bloated from crinone.
RRCS: RE confirmed that HCG leveled out/slightly dipped so loss is "imminent." Next steps: stop Crinone, monitor HCG levels, and then do a repeat loss panel and additional labs. If nothing surprising from that, then move on to injectibles. I'm crushed and a general mess after two losses in three months.
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