Struggling - tell me I'm normal :-(
Jul 10, 2017 13:09:34 GMT -6
Post by oldbaylover1024 on Jul 10, 2017 13:09:34 GMT -6
So I realized it's been a month since I posted this. A few folks asked, so I figured I'd give a little update
I'm doing... okay.
MH and I are struggling. I think it's a work/life balance honestly. He recently got a promotion (yay!), but it's required him to be at the office more for training (boo), which leaves me with the kids alone a lot. I also work 40+ hours/week, so there's no free time for, well, anything. I mean, my entire day is scheduled in 15-minute increments. It's insane right now. BUT I keep reminding myself it's temporary. Once MH's training is over and he gets back to his new normal 40 hour work week, he should be able to help out more. Right now drop-offs, pick-ups, dinner, and the beginning of bedtime is on me every day. He's also been working Saturdays, so I have the kids alone and I'm also doing all the weekend stuff we're committed to. Oh, and all errands because why not, right?! It's insane. He's helping as much as he can (mostly), but it's mainly because I bitched about it enough that he finally sees I need help. He did both drop-offs this morning so I FINALLY got to work on time!
You'd think all this time alone with the kids would help the "closeness" issues with C, but I'm not sure it has. We're so busy when it's just the three of us (me, C, and J) that I don't get to spend lots of fun time with them. We're usually on our way somewhere, or getting something done, or rushing out the door... it's all very fast paced.
Emotionally I'm struggling. I'm taking steps, but I know it's going to take time. I guess if I'm honest with myself I'm in a depression. Time, stress, hormones, the general business of life is all contributing. Plus, the continued lack of alone/"me" time doesn't help. I'd like to think it'll get better, and that's what I'm focusing on, but it's hard to see the light when you feel like you're wading through sand in the tunnel. ETA: I'm also dealing with some health issues right now, and that isn't helping matters.
Meh. FX the next few weeks bring some change.
Tl;dr - Life is hard, but we're working on it.
I'm doing... okay.
MH and I are struggling. I think it's a work/life balance honestly. He recently got a promotion (yay!), but it's required him to be at the office more for training (boo), which leaves me with the kids alone a lot. I also work 40+ hours/week, so there's no free time for, well, anything. I mean, my entire day is scheduled in 15-minute increments. It's insane right now. BUT I keep reminding myself it's temporary. Once MH's training is over and he gets back to his new normal 40 hour work week, he should be able to help out more. Right now drop-offs, pick-ups, dinner, and the beginning of bedtime is on me every day. He's also been working Saturdays, so I have the kids alone and I'm also doing all the weekend stuff we're committed to. Oh, and all errands because why not, right?! It's insane. He's helping as much as he can (mostly), but it's mainly because I bitched about it enough that he finally sees I need help. He did both drop-offs this morning so I FINALLY got to work on time!
You'd think all this time alone with the kids would help the "closeness" issues with C, but I'm not sure it has. We're so busy when it's just the three of us (me, C, and J) that I don't get to spend lots of fun time with them. We're usually on our way somewhere, or getting something done, or rushing out the door... it's all very fast paced.
Emotionally I'm struggling. I'm taking steps, but I know it's going to take time. I guess if I'm honest with myself I'm in a depression. Time, stress, hormones, the general business of life is all contributing. Plus, the continued lack of alone/"me" time doesn't help. I'd like to think it'll get better, and that's what I'm focusing on, but it's hard to see the light when you feel like you're wading through sand in the tunnel. ETA: I'm also dealing with some health issues right now, and that isn't helping matters.
Meh. FX the next few weeks bring some change.
Tl;dr - Life is hard, but we're working on it.