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Post by westiemom on Sept 19, 2017 19:56:28 GMT -6
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Post by westiemom on Sept 19, 2017 19:56:58 GMT -6
Just chilling here on my TI w Femara cycle! My monitoring appt is Thursday. My ovaries feel sore and huge so I'm curious to see what's going on in there!
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Post by moto on Sept 19, 2017 21:18:51 GMT -6
Hi everyone! I have about a week left of my bcp, and then I start my FET medications. I'm still worried that my vitamin D levels were low... I'm taking a lot of supplement vit D and I'm hoping my levels get back up to normal before transfer. I'm really nervous about transfer in general, since this is our last embryo, and my husband isn't willing to do more treatments.
I'm afraid that if this doesn't work out, I'll slide back into my old IF habits of getting upset when I see pregnant women, having a hard time with pregnancy announcements, etc etc. Of course I'm so so so so grateful for twins - but bottom line is that even though I have them, I want to be pregnant again. They are the most amazing part of my life, and when you find something that amazing, you want more of it! Or at least I do. I wish I had control.
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Post by DrHooch on Sept 19, 2017 21:25:34 GMT -6
**tw**
I had my u/s today. I am 8 weeks along but the embryo was only measuring 6 weeks and they couldn't find a heartbeat. I think I'm out again.
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Post by moto on Sept 19, 2017 21:31:32 GMT -6
DrHooch - I'm so sorry you didn't get better news. Are you still in limbo? Are they having you come back to check again for the heartbeat?
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Post by DrHooch on Sept 19, 2017 21:36:11 GMT -6
moto yeah I'm going back in next week but I'm pretty sure it's just to humor me. RE seemed pretty sure it's not viable. Even sent me home with a kit to collect a sample when I start miscarrying.
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Post by twohopes on Sept 20, 2017 6:28:26 GMT -6
DrHooch, I am sorry to hear this, that is the worst. When is your next appointment?
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Post by DrHooch on Sept 20, 2017 6:47:32 GMT -6
twohopes next Tuesday morning. H has to work and can't come this time, so that sucks. I am expecting the worst, though, because having to go into work and teach after getting the bad news yesterday was impossible and I can't do it again.
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Post by twohopes on Sept 20, 2017 7:19:00 GMT -6
DrHooch, I am so sorry you are going through this. I was on the awful roller coaster of awful pregnancy symptoms, but an embryo that was behind a week from where it should have been not even a month ago and I would never wish this even on my worst enemy. For me, the strong symptoms were one of the cruelest part. I don't know if it is better to hold out hope that the outcome will be miraculous, or to start accepting it. At this point, you truly don't really have the final confirmation. I think I vacillated between hope and acceptance for a while, although deep down I knew. If you ever want to talk, message me.
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Post by twohopes on Sept 20, 2017 8:14:45 GMT -6
I'm afraid that if this doesn't work out, I'll slide back into my old IF habits of getting upset when I see pregnant women, having a hard time with pregnancy announcements, etc etc. Of course I'm so so so so grateful for twins - but bottom line is that even though I have them, I want to be pregnant again. They are the most amazing part of my life, and when you find something that amazing, you want more of it! Or at least I do. I wish I had control. Yeah, all of this applies to me too. I am glad I am not alone. A non-update update on me (Tw loss): I am finally ovulating after my miscarriage MVA procedure on August 26, so we went to town with "trying" yesterday and today. But I will be also glad to get my period so we can get the IVF show on the road. It will start after next cycle with a hysteroscopy and mock transfer and cycling probably in December. I need to lose 16-20 lbs ASAP, so it gives me something to focus on other that the awfulness of losses and IF. |
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Post by tiresiastheblond on Sept 20, 2017 14:23:57 GMT -6
DrHooch, I'm so sorry you didn't get more reassuring news. Being in limbo like that is so awful.
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Post by tiresiastheblond on Sept 20, 2017 14:28:00 GMT -6
moto, I'm sorry you're feeling so anxious. Everything crossed for this cycle. twohopes, yay for ovulating! FX for your trying on your own and/or getting started with your IVF. AFM, I've started estrace and dexamethazone for my FET, which will take place in either the 1st or 3rd week of October.
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Post by westiemom on Sept 20, 2017 20:36:28 GMT -6
moto I totally get what you are saying about old IF habits. DrHooch I'm so sorry. Huge hugs. Keep us posted. Limbo is awful.
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Post by DrHooch on Sept 21, 2017 5:25:22 GMT -6
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Post by scrang on Sept 22, 2017 14:30:52 GMT -6
westiemom, Ugh, I hate that full ovary feeling! moto, Ditto on everything you said, especially with yours being the lonely embryo left. We only have one normal and another that came back with partial mosaicism (at best a 50/50 chance of survival) so everything is riding on the one. I'm so anxiety ridden! twohopes, Glad ovulation is back! tiresiastheblond, If you transfer the 1st week of October, we'll be transfer buddies!
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Post by scrang on Sept 22, 2017 14:31:18 GMT -6
DrHooch, So sorry you're in limbo...hugs
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Post by scrang on Sept 22, 2017 14:33:42 GMT -6
I'm in the final countdown for FET, 11 more days! Lining check coming up, then start Crinone, and we'll get the final go ahead/appointment for transfer. Getting scared and excited!
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Post by twohopes on Sept 22, 2017 14:38:40 GMT -6
scrang, Good luck with your FET!
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