TFAS 9/5/17

[westiemom]

Sorry I'm late! I hope you had a good weekend!

What's new?

mnj05
scrang
baymare
grover
moto
DrHooch
crazycatlady6

[mnj05]

Another round of blood work on Thursday, nothing until then. Last Thursday my numbers went down to 8, so hopefully they're 0 this week.

[westiemom]

Just hanging in the 2ww. OB on Monday. It's 8dpo now and I tested this AM (I'm a chronic early tester) and bfn. I'm feel really down this cycle for some reason. Maybe because this was our last chance before intervention? I was hoping it would be easier this time.

[baymare]

mnj05 I hope your numbers are back down to zero. But sorry you had to go through that.

westiemom, I too am a POASaholic ... But 8dpo is ridiculously early. I'm sorry you're feeling down about this cycle. It's such a hard thing to "give up" on having it happen naturally, especially when there is still a chance that it will.

AFM ... Cost letter for IVF dropped off to my employer. Now we wait.

[twohopes]

Hi, may I please join this check-in, if it's appropriate?
TW: living child, losses
I have an almost 3 year old (3 next month) and I had one miscarriage and one chemical before her. She was a naturally conceived baby, and knowing what we know know, that makes her quite a bit of a miracle. We discovered at 13 weeks of that pregnancy that my husband has a Robertsonian translocation, about doubling our chance for a miscarriage compared to the normal population. We had been trying on and off for a sibling since she weaned and my cycle returned (about January of 2016), but were not too serious about it. I got pregnant in July, but miscarried in August and had an MVA on August 25th at what should have been about 8 weeks pregnant. I have finally stopped spotting and bleeding and now hoping to get my period without much of a delay.
I am not sure what the next step is, but most likely it will be IVF with PGS, as my husband is the carrier of a chromosome rearrangement. We are awaiting the results from the karyotype of fetal tissue to see if the miscarriage was related.

I am heartbroken and sad. I am so beyond grateful for my daughter. But I also really, really want a second child. Maybe I am too old? Maybe it's not meant to be? I don't know.Just sad and confused at the moment.

[baymare]

twohopes welcome, of course you can join! I'm so sorry you went through all of that. It's good that you know what the problem seems to be. IVF can seem overwhelming, but it's certainly doable. It doesn't sound like you should give up yet!

[grover]

I'm in the 2ww. I woke up two nights ago with horrible nausea, and was nauseous on my car ride home today, so of course my mind thinks "yay, morning sickness" when reality is that I have a bad cold and post nasal drip. plan to test over the weekend if AF doesn't show by then.

[moto]

westiemom - I'll keep my fingers crossed for you... 8dpo is really early. I know we'd all love to just get pregnant naturally, but I try to keep my eye on the end goal. I've convinced myself that it doesn't matter how long it takes or how many treatments I have to go through as long as I get my family in the end. Easier said than done, I know.

mnj05 - I hope you are at zero! I'm sorry for your loss.

twohopes - welcome! I'm sorry for everything you've had to go through. I hope you find success with IVF.

grover - good luck. The TWW is the worst.

baymare - what does a cost letter mean? Does that mean your employer has to approve it?

[moto]

As for me, today is cycle day 1 for my FET! Although the first step is 3 weeks of bcp. For those of you who have done FETs, what day did you start taking the pills? My normal nurse is on vacation and I played voicemail tag with her backup, but never actually got to speak to her. I ended up calling the on-call nurse after hours to ask her if I should start the pill pack, and she said we usually start them on cycle days 3-5. Does that sound right?

In one of the messages during my voicemail tag, the back-up nurse said my vitamin D is way too low, and my RE wants me to take supplements for 8 weeks. Do you think that will affect my FET schedule at all? When I first got the message I got really upset because I assumed that meant my FET would be delayed. I tried to call back to ask but the woman never answers her phone. I miss my normal nurse. I always assumed they wanted us to take vitamin D to help egg quality, but that shouldn't be a factor in a FET, right?

[twohopes]

Thank you, baymare and moto, for the welcome. It helps me feel far less alone in this journey.
I am trying to take the long view, but it's hard. At 37, I just feel like I am running out of time and every bit of waiting seems like wasted time. Any helpful strategies for quieting the anxiety?

[DrHooch]

westiemom thanks for the check in! I'm sorry you're feeling down. I, too, thought the second time would be easier. IF sucks.

mnj05 it sucks that it's taking so long to get down to 0. FX for this week.

baymare yay for getting the letter. FX for you, too.

twohopes I am so sorry for your losses. You are definitely welcome here, especially since the AL boards are so slow right now. As for feeling old and like you're running out of time. I am 36 (37 in February) and I definitely feel you. No great strategies, though. I am just anxious all the time

grover I hate the looking for symptoms. I always go too far in one direction or the other. FX for your get this weekend.

moto yikes! GL. I have no experience with any of that so I can't help.



**warnings**



AFM, Still pregnant. 6.5 week scan on Friday. I have been feeling very nauseous, which sucks and is so different from my first pregnancy and my m/c, but I welcome it because it means I'm (probably) still pregnant.

[westiemom]

twohopes welcome! I'm so sorry for all you have been through. Huge hugs. You are in good company here! Try to take it one day at a time. I try to focus on other things so TTC doesn't consume me. However, your losses are fresh so feel all the feels. 💗

moto good luck with the start of your cycle! I wish I could remember by FET protocol but I'm drawing a blank! My RE had me take vitamin d. I still take it daily! I read online that it only matters for retrievals so you should be ok!

grover I hope you feel better! I am all about symptom spotting too 😉

[twohopes]

DrHooch, thank you and best of luck tomorrow. Nausea is a good sign and I am hopeful this will be your rainbow. Sadly, this miscarriage is not my first loss rodeo, and I did have one before my successful pregnancy. In my personal experience, that affected my pregnancy and really caused me to worry all the time: early weeks, genetic screening, birth defects, prematurity, cord accidents, you name it: I worried about it. I hope you are going to have a much smoother experience, but be prepared that it might happen...

westiemom, thank you for the welcome. Did you re-test now that it's been a few days later? Fingers crossed!!

[DrHooch]

twohopes thank you. And I am so sorry for your losses. I barely survived one, I can't imagine doing it again. One of my good friends had several m/c between her two daughters and has also warned me that pregnancy after m/c is especially difficult. Unfortunately, so far that seems to be the case for me as well. I am hoping it will get easier as I get further along.

[twohopes]

DrHooch, Yeah, I don't think anyone is really made to survive a loss, let alone multiple ones. I truly sincerely hope that this will be your rainbow, you will complete your family, and the memory of your loss will fade away into a much less painful scar than it still is. BEST of luck tomorrow!! What time is your appointment?

[scrang]

Hi Everyone! I'm nea ing the end of my mock cycle, woohoo! I had my endometrial receptivity biopsy today and back on the Lupron. Everything is going according to plan, so after 4 days of Provera, I await my period and get started with my FET cycle. Looks like it's still a target date of Oct 5.

[westiemom]

***tw***

twohopes I tested today and there might be a super faint line. I will retest again tomorrow! 🤞🏻

[twohopes]

Sept 7, 2017 20:25:53 GMT -6 westiemom said:

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twohopes I tested today and there might be a super faint line. I will retest again tomorrow! 🤞🏻

Wow, that is amazing. Congratulations!

[DrHooch]

***tw***

u/s went not good this morning. There is a sac in the uterus but no fetal pole. The doctor said it's possible that I o'd later than "normal" and so the fetus is behind for that reason, but I can't help thinking I am losing another one. Next u/s is Sept 19. Not sure how I am going to make it that long without knowing.

[tiresiastheblond]

Hi, all. Is it OK if I join, too? I'm waiting on CD1 for a FET (my last ever attempt at TTC, and I won't miss it!) DD was born in February after the FET of our very last CCS normal (that we know about) embryo. However, one of the other embryos we sent for testing came back as "no result," because they didn't get enough DNA to work with in the biopsy, so we're giving it a shot. The RE strongly recommends against biopsying it again because it's already been frozen/thawed twice. Given that fact, as well as the fact that I was 41 when that egg was retrieved, I know it's a super duper extra long shot, but you never know!

[tiresiastheblond]

DrHooch, I'm so sorry about the uncertainty. I hope your next u/s is much more reassuring.

westiemom, yay!!! Fx, fx, fx!

[tiresiastheblond]

twohopes, I'm so sorry for your losses. It's so very hard.
scrang, glad things are on track. Good luck!!

[tiresiastheblond]

baymare, I hope everything works out with your employer!
grover, everything crossed for you!
moto, good luck! I think it's a very good idea to get your vitamin D corrected before your FET. I've read that it's important in the lining's actual response to estrogen and that low levels are not conducive to a receptive lining capable of supporting an embryo. I don't know if this is WHY, of course, but I was never successful, despite normal embryos, until I got my levels where they should be.

[tiresiastheblond]

mnj05, I'm sorry for your loss and hope you're at zero soon.

Also, all, sorry for the multiple, multiple posts. I'm on my phone and don't have tapatalk, but do have a terrible memory.

[twohopes]

tiresiastheblond, hello and thank you for your message. I wish you the best of luck with your last remaining embryo.
DrHooch, I am sorry you did not get definitive good news at the ultrasound. I hope it really was just too early and next week will bring better news. The waiting is hard, though.