Intro (Update: I'm out)
Jun 14, 2017 16:13:04 GMT -6
Post by katietopaz on Jun 14, 2017 16:13:04 GMT -6
Hi ladies. I hope it's okay if I join you - my brief history is in my siggy.
I got a surprise BFP yesterday morning. It was our first month TTC off the bench after an ectopic pregnancy, and my mind just keeps going and going with the anxiety and fear. So much is similar to the ectopic pregnancy - then, I didn't realize I was pregnant because I thought I'd had a period, but ended up in the ER two weeks later with severe cramping and bleeding, which led to the diagnosis. With this pregnancy, I had bleeding about a week ago that I assumed was my period, but it was very light and short, so I took a pregnancy test on a hunch. The bleeding has since stopped, but it had also stopped after what I thought was my period with the ectopic pregnancy, too.
I'm thankful that my OB has been super on it. I called her yesterday morning and she put in orders for bloodwork right away. Yesterday's betas came back at 68, and I'll do another round tomorrow. If tomorrow's look good, she'll schedule an early ultrasound and we'll hope for the best.
I just hate that I'm at a much higher risk for another ectopic but I'm stuck in the waiting game to find out, and I hate this emotional rollercoaster: hope and not wanting to rob this pregnancy of its joy, and anxiety and fear because this mirrors so closely my loss. (TW: LO mentioned - I try to think instead of my pregnancy with DS, where I did have bleeding throughout first tri, and here he is.)
I hope I'll be sticking around - I'm 4w2d with a mid-February EDD and just keep repeating the mantras in the sticky post to myself <3
Update 6/20 - yesterday's betas came back with a drop from last week's. I'm not totally shocked since I had some spotting and cramping over the weekend, but still heartbroken - I let myself get my hopes up. I'm just hoping subsequent tests show this isn't ectopic, too. Hopefully I'll be back to join you all here before too long. FX to everyone here for healthy, happy pregnancies!
I got a surprise BFP yesterday morning. It was our first month TTC off the bench after an ectopic pregnancy, and my mind just keeps going and going with the anxiety and fear. So much is similar to the ectopic pregnancy - then, I didn't realize I was pregnant because I thought I'd had a period, but ended up in the ER two weeks later with severe cramping and bleeding, which led to the diagnosis. With this pregnancy, I had bleeding about a week ago that I assumed was my period, but it was very light and short, so I took a pregnancy test on a hunch. The bleeding has since stopped, but it had also stopped after what I thought was my period with the ectopic pregnancy, too.
I'm thankful that my OB has been super on it. I called her yesterday morning and she put in orders for bloodwork right away. Yesterday's betas came back at 68, and I'll do another round tomorrow. If tomorrow's look good, she'll schedule an early ultrasound and we'll hope for the best.
I just hate that I'm at a much higher risk for another ectopic but I'm stuck in the waiting game to find out, and I hate this emotional rollercoaster: hope and not wanting to rob this pregnancy of its joy, and anxiety and fear because this mirrors so closely my loss. (TW: LO mentioned - I try to think instead of my pregnancy with DS, where I did have bleeding throughout first tri, and here he is.)
I hope I'll be sticking around - I'm 4w2d with a mid-February EDD and just keep repeating the mantras in the sticky post to myself <3
Update 6/20 - yesterday's betas came back with a drop from last week's. I'm not totally shocked since I had some spotting and cramping over the weekend, but still heartbroken - I let myself get my hopes up. I'm just hoping subsequent tests show this isn't ectopic, too. Hopefully I'll be back to join you all here before too long. FX to everyone here for healthy, happy pregnancies!
