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Post by yianna on Mar 25, 2018 8:22:45 GMT -6
Sunday eviction notice.
Get out.
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Post by dizzycooks on Mar 25, 2018 8:24:47 GMT -6
Sunday eviction notice. Get out. Seriously. Can I just say dh had the nerve to get upset with the kids this morning bc they were noisy and awake at 6am? And he’s TIRED. I cannot express my irritation. I refrained from telling him to go eff himself.
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Post by calendula on Mar 25, 2018 10:40:36 GMT -6
DH asked me what we were going to do today and I cried for an hour.
I think the reality is sinking in that I'm probably not going into labor on my own and I have to wait until Wednesday at least. I'm sick over it. My phone won't stop buzzing with people checking in. I'm burning through mat leave. I'm a physical and mental disaster. All my PGAL anxiety is coming back with a fury. Like this "let nature take its course" thing is nice in theory but it's never really worked out for me in this department and I really really am regretting not having a conversation with my OB about induction sooner.
I'm just a mess. 😞
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Post by yianna on Mar 25, 2018 11:16:35 GMT -6
DH asked me what we were going to do today and I cried for an hour. I think the reality is sinking in that I'm probably not going into labor on my own and I have to wait until Wednesday at least. I'm sick over it. My phone won't stop buzzing with people checking in. I'm burning through mat leave. I'm a physical and mental disaster. All my PGAL anxiety is coming back with a fury. Like this "let nature take its course" thing is nice in theory but it's never really worked out for me in this department and I really really am regretting not having a conversation with my OB about induction sooner. I'm just a mess. 😞 I would call tomorrow and ask about moving it up and having an NST.
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Post by leatherpants on Mar 25, 2018 11:39:18 GMT -6
DH asked me what we were going to do today and I cried for an hour. I think the reality is sinking in that I'm probably not going into labor on my own and I have to wait until Wednesday at least. I'm sick over it. My phone won't stop buzzing with people checking in. I'm burning through mat leave. I'm a physical and mental disaster. All my PGAL anxiety is coming back with a fury. Like this "let nature take its course" thing is nice in theory but it's never really worked out for me in this department and I really really am regretting not having a conversation with my OB about induction sooner. I'm just a mess. 😞 Sending you big hugs friend ❤️ The end of pregnancy is a mindfuck over and over. It’s not you. You aren’t a disaster. You are just a normal, million month pregnant woman. ❤️❤️
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Post by calendula on Mar 25, 2018 12:05:49 GMT -6
DH asked me what we were going to do today and I cried for an hour. I think the reality is sinking in that I'm probably not going into labor on my own and I have to wait until Wednesday at least. I'm sick over it. My phone won't stop buzzing with people checking in. I'm burning through mat leave. I'm a physical and mental disaster. All my PGAL anxiety is coming back with a fury. Like this "let nature take its course" thing is nice in theory but it's never really worked out for me in this department and I really really am regretting not having a conversation with my OB about induction sooner. I'm just a mess. 😞 I would call tomorrow and ask about moving it up and having an NST. They won't. It's their policy not to induce before 41 at least. I foolishly didn't think to learn more about that until it was too late. I did have the NST last week and it was okay thankfully
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Post by yianna on Mar 25, 2018 12:41:10 GMT -6
I would call tomorrow and ask about moving it up and having an NST. They won't. It's their policy not to induce before 41 at least. I foolishly didn't think to learn more about that until it was too late. I did have the NST last week and it was okay thankfully Seriously?? (I’m upset for you....)
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Post by nevertoomanyshoes on Mar 25, 2018 13:30:47 GMT -6
I’m sorry calendula, can they schedule you something so you at least have a definite end date (even if they make it at 41 weeks- I hope you don’t need to wait that long!)? The end of pregnancy is just an emotional roller coaster on top of the physical challenge ☹️
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Post by nevertoomanyshoes on Mar 25, 2018 13:34:03 GMT -6
I would like this March baby to listen to his eviction date but I’m starting to feel like I’m gonna end up with an April baby.
Going to the OB in a couple of hours to maybe make a plan? I’m 41 weeks this Friday but that’s a public holiday so not sure the hospital will want to schedule anything. I’m also not sure if I’m ready to schedule something, I don’t want to be induced but I want this baby to come before 42 weeks.
Hoping I can at least get a membrane sweep today, was locked up too tight last week to get one.
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Post by sweetc129 on Mar 25, 2018 13:47:31 GMT -6
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Post by calendula on Mar 25, 2018 13:53:34 GMT -6
They won't. It's their policy not to induce before 41 at least. I foolishly didn't think to learn more about that until it was too late. I did have the NST last week and it was okay thankfully Seriously?? (I’m upset for you....) Yeah 😞 And I sort of get it. 6 years ago I was very into letting the body do its thing and resisting intervention and all that. But things have just changed for me. I'm in a rough spot mentally and while the struggles of IF and my previous losses have faded a lot since 20 weeks, it's just catching up with me again and I have these moments of panic like "I want off this train NOW". Logically I know the baby is fine. And 3 more days is not that long when I've waited 4 years. Sorry for the word vomit. I just don't know where else to put all this.
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Post by katietopaz on Mar 25, 2018 15:22:53 GMT -6
Hugs calendula I think your feelings are completely understandable, and this is a safe place to vent. These last days of pregnancy are such a mind game, even without everything else you have on your mind, and I'm sorry that you have more waiting to do. I really hope that things kick into gear super soon, and if not, then your doctor can make a plan with you quickly. Hang in there ❤️
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Post by cornpop on Mar 25, 2018 18:05:41 GMT -6
I'm so sorry calendula. It's so hard just waiting and I can totally get that lack of control triggering your anxiety. I hope this baby comes soon for you!
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Post by yianna on Mar 25, 2018 19:05:38 GMT -6
calendula - loss and IF is a total mind eff in late pregnancy. It’s why I have refused to go past 40w with all of mine. Seriously - you’re feelings are totally valid. If you feel you need extra monitoring explain why to them.
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Post by calendula on Mar 26, 2018 5:42:55 GMT -6
Thank you so much, you guys. I really appreciate the kind words. I needed that.
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Post by mattsgirl2004 on Mar 26, 2018 7:01:37 GMT -6
+1 to what everyone has already said calendula. Sending hugs and hoping baby comes soon for you! Almost there!
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Post by polson on Mar 26, 2018 7:28:52 GMT -6
calendula i’m sorry you’re struggling - all of your feelings are valid and we’re here to lean on💜
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