addymac
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Post by addymac on Feb 15, 2018 3:48:50 GMT -6
Age: 5mo 3w 2d
Milestones: gosh, he’s changing so much these days I don’t know. He loves to stand with help obviously. He started growling, its hilarious.
Challenges: sleep! He’ll give us a few good nights and then regresses to 4+ wake ups! Like what?! We know you can sleep til 4am, you did it the night before!!
Funny/cute stories: we were in FL visiting my MIL last week and he was so happy in the pool and at the beach! He LOOOOVES the water. He loves splashing in it and kicking his feet. It’s so cute.
How are you? Okay. Tired. Missing Florida 😭 sad to be back in the snow and at work!
Anything else? My Loss EDD is tomorrow. I have a lot of feels. Like, I should be having a one year old. But I have N and he’s the best and I don’t want to not have him but I also want my loss baby. But I can’t have them both, and I hate the whole “everything happens for a reason” BS, but how do I balance my want for loss baby with the insane amount of love and happiness with N?
QOTW: Any plans for Valentine's? Are you doing anything for your little one? I had to work a night rotation at 7pm so we didn’t do anything. I got dh a card and chocolates, he got me cookies. We like food. And then we split what we got each other 😂 I’m also the worst mom and lazy and didn’t dress N up or anything ☹️ I bought him some socks? I snuggled him a lot this morning.
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Post by oldbaylover1024 on Feb 15, 2018 7:58:14 GMT -6
{{hugs}} addymac. The 'what ifs' are so hard. My niece is the same age as my first angel and sometimes I go to that place, too. It's really really hard. I try to simply love the living kids I have because they're wonderful in their own special ways and (most likely) wouldn't be here had we not traveled the road we did. Yes, it was a fucking horrible road getting them and there are always going to be 'what ifs', but I can't let the 'what ifs' take over. I'm so sorry. Be kind to yourself today and know you and your angel are always in my heart {{hugs}}
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