A check in!

[flippinchica]

How far along are you? EDD?

How are you feeling physically and emotionally?

Any upcoming appointments or milestones?

Any other word vomit to share?

GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)?

[ajetter]

I'm stressing today so thanks for posting this.

How far along are you? EDD? 6W5D, Jan 21st

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically I've been feeling a little better the last two days, so emotionally I am a wreck. I'm over analyzing my symptoms like a hawk and I feel like I could completely break down at any minute. My husband hates to see me upset (does not complain or anything, just upsets him) so I'm trying to ignore everything and keep it together.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? My loss milestone is still five weeks away, but I do have a sono and appt next Friday. I need the week to fly by.

Any other word vomit to share? I just hate not knowing how this is going to end. And seriously over analyzing everything. My brain keeps drifting to negative thoughts, and I try to decipher if that's my body's way of trying to warn me or if that is just PgAL brain for ya. I just want to sleep until I can feel movement.

GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)? Nothing right now.

[cali]

((hugs)) ajetter. First trimester is so damn hard. I hope your u/s next week helps give you some reassurance.

[flippinchica]

ajetter I could have (and basically did) write this post on Monday. Those early days are so hard. Sending hugs
Eta: when my nausea went away last weekend I convinced myself it was basically over so at least for me bad thoughts were pgal brain

[flippinchica]

How far along are you? EDD?
9 weeks tomorrow. Edd is Jan 7
]How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically somewhat better. Still tired but less all day nausea which sent me into a tailspin last weekend. I was able to move my appointment to Thursday and get seen before this weekend and the ultrasound was perfect so now I feel good
]Any upcoming appointments or milestones? my loss Milestone wasxlast weekend so I'm sure that contributed to my meltdown
Any other word vomit to share? I tried my Doppler on Monday and couldn't get a good heartbeat I knew it was really early. Yesterday it was easy to find and strong so that was awesome
GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)? I've gotten into podcasts since I have a longer commute now. NPR, death sex and money and Matt and Doree's Eggcellent adventure

[bethkate]

How far along are you? EDD? 18w today. Due 11/4

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Good. Still not feeling movement because I have an anterior placenta, but my doppler helps.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? Monday is our anatomy scan! I haven't had an u/s in over 5 weeks, so I'm excited to see the baby and excited to find out the sex. FX everything looks good. I am starting to get nervous about it.

Any other word vomit to share? Nope

GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)? Loving the new House of Cards season

[bethkate]

ajetter, pgal brain sucks, especially in those early days. Hugs. Good luck at you appointment next week.

[ajetter]

Thanks ladies. I'm still stressing quite a bit so I thought I'd ease my mind by taking a pregnancy test again. The line popped up immediately and is dark. But. But it is slightly lighter than the tests I took a little over a week ago. I know I shouldn't read too much into it, but I am. I don't think I can make it until Friday, but I don't know how I'd manage to get in any earlier.

[ldubhawksfan]

How far along are you? EDD? 12w, 12/16

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically better this week. Emotionally ok. We passed our milestone of 11 weeks and had a good US TueS but the baby wouldn't turn for measurements. Another attempt at NT scan this wed.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? Wed

Any other word vomit to share? Just looking forward to hopefully a reassuring appt and then relief from ms moving forward.

GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)? We are watching GOT

[addymac]

Hi ladies! I've missed these 🙃


How far along are you? EDD? 29! 8/19

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Larger than I feel like I should. Constant hip pain. Cankles have arrived in full force. If I wear regular ankle socks my ankles have muffin tops!! Sleep is uncomfortable and my snoogle isn't helping like I hoped / heard it would ☹️

Okay. He kicks a lot, which is reassuring. I work in NICU and lately we've had a handful of cases where babies looked fine inside until they came out and had some rare syndrome and it's freaking me out. I keep telling myself it's such a small % but as our loss was a "happens in about 1% of pregnancies", I've experiences small percentages so it's not that reassuring to me bc why wouldn't I end up with another small percentage issue? 😔

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? Passed my glucose test on Wednesday!

Any other word vomit to share? I'm okay. I am in a weird place where I hate to complain to anyone because I wanted this baby but man aside from feeling him kick and move, I'm not a big fan of being pregnant. It's fun to see my coworkers reactions when they see my belly when I arrive at work before changing into scrubs, since scrubs hide a lot, so they see it and are like OMG!! YOUR BELLY IS SO BIG NOW!! It makes me feel proud In a dumb way, haha.

GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)? we are finishing up the leftovers and Americans. Just moved and cancelled Netflix and the majority of our cable so we will need to find what we have access to to watch something soon.

[easternshoregirl]

I'm going to join you guys here and stop posting all my pregnancy-related stuff on Aug 15!

How far along are you? EDD? just barely pregnant....4w2d; I think 2/9 will be the EDD

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically, just super tired. It's a busy time with work anyway but I'm just exhausted. Emotionally, I'm a wreck. (see word vomit section)

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? Another appt for betas on Monday.

Any other word vomit to share? The freakin pharmacy keeps trying to give me RED progesterone capsules and they don't seem to understand why that is a problem. I cried in Walgreens last night and DH ended up going back twice to try to fix it for me. Still don't have the white ones but I should get them on Monday. Having red discharge every time I look at my underwear is unacceptable.
I also was stressed this week about having so much to do and knowing I would feel better if I got more rest. I had 2 long days at work, 2 drives to get bloodwork done at the RE, and a big social day today. Plus, I want to wash down the porch and do some other regular housekeeping tasks but that is getting put on the backburner for now.

GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)? Obsessed with "Despacito" (it's a song) like everyone else but I can't stand the Bieber version, not much TV just baseball when it's on.

[easternshoregirl]

Glad to hear you passed your milestone ldubhawksfan! That's a big deal.


ajetter, sounds like you're doing your best. Keep on keeping on. Last time, I told myself, I have to act like this is going to be OK. (unfortunately, it wasn't)
This time, I'm more in the "I'm not ready to celebrate" mode.

Glad you are doing better, flippinchica!


bethkate, I was over on Nov 17 for a minute. So happy to see that everything is going well for you guys!


addymac, it's perfectly fine to not like being pregnant, no need to feel badly about that.

[ldubhawksfan]

easternshoregirl as if suppositories aren't the worst, I can't believe they even make them red. I'm sorry

[officedronette]

Jun 3, 2017 19:15:03 GMT -6 ldubhawksfan said:

easternshoregirl as if suppositories aren't the worst, I can't believe they even make them red. I'm sorry

This. Good. Grief. I'm so sorry easternshoregirl. What a mindfuck for absolutely no reason.


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[Waffle]

How far along are you? EDD?
11w1d

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically tired again but otherwise ok. Mentally anxious about reaching second trimester and upcoming NIPT.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? Weekly check on Wednesday and NIPT the following Monday.

Any other word vomit to share?

GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)? We've just been binge watching grand designs on Netflix.

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[ajetter]

Not that anyone was stressing too much about my idiot move to take a test at 7 weeks, but it had me all worked up. I finally googled lighter test lines at 7 weeks and came across the 'hook effect'. Personally hadn't heard of it. But I diluted my urine with water and wouldn't you know the test line was darker.

Moral of the story? I'm a crazy nut job and PgAL brain sucks and Friday needs to get here asap. I'll try to keep my pyscho to myself for the time being.

[officedronette]

Hugs @starzia. Do you have a therapist you can talk to, to manage your anxiety? (I am an Anxiety haver and have found therapy tremendously helpful over the course of my life.) I don't want to add fuel to the fire, but sweating the smaller stuff like that too much is probably more harmful than the smaller stuff itself (which is something I tell myself when I think I'm dealing with an unproductive worry). I constantly find myself trying to work through things logically because I will get so worked up over something and my lizard brain takes over.

To some degree, you are always going to be worried about her, forever. You are never going to reach a point in time where you are "safe" and nothing bad can touch you or your family. The key is to figure out what you need to get to do to get to a place where you aren't thinking about that 24/7, but acknowledge it, and then move on to other thoughts on the thought river. Mindfulness as part of therapy can be very helpful. You don't judge or dwell on your thoughts, but just kind of acknowledge them in a "that's a thought way" and move on.

I also find prayer to be personally helpful when I get stuck in a bad loop. I'll pick a prayer and say it over and over until I'm calmer. If you're not a religious sort, any sort of short mantra could do. Like my therapist would have me focus on the ground under my feet and how solid it felt and my breathing.


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[officedronette]

I'm 13w2d, EDD 12/8

Physically I'm less crappy feeling. Emotionally not quite as acutely anxious as a few weeks ago, but still uneasy and scared to get too attached yet. But I've bought a few sleepers for the new baby so I'm trying.

I have a Doppler check on Tuesday because I got nervous and called so I wouldn't have to wait until June 15. Then June 15 is my next appointment. I don't remember the exact date, but this is the week that my first loss was diagnosed and I had a D&C. It was three years ago this year. My EDD with that angel baby was 12/18, so walking the same timeline with this pregnancy has been hard.

I think I've word vomited enough above and elsewhere. 😳

We just finished binge catching up on Veep, and then the rest of this season's The Goldbergs (one of our absolute favs).


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[easternshoregirl]

ajetter, a friend and I were just talking about the hook effect! I'm glad to hear diluting the urine worked for you!

[officedronette]

@starzia - it's gotten better, but only because I try not to feed the beast. I acknowledge the "my daughter could die in an accident, of childhood cancer, etc etc." and move on without dwelling on it. I don't know if it's gotten better because she's older OR because like a muscle, I have more practice. I have a feeling it's the latter.

I think Brene Brown had a good mantra when she has those types scary thoughts that was just recognizing it and sort of chanting "vulnerability vulnerability vulnerability."


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[sarahh]

How far along are you? EDD? 10 weeks tomorrow EDD 1/2

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically - not bad, nauseous at times and super constipated. I wish I had written down all of my symptoms with DD so I had something to compare to. Emotionally - okay. I passed my last loss date so I am feeling more hopeful. Still not getting attached quite yet though.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? 1st "real" OB appointment next Monday. They are also going to draw blood for Panorama. Not sure what else they will do but it better include an ultrasound because at that time it will have been 3 weeks.

Any other word vomit to share? Not at the moment!

GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)? We've just been watching movies on Kodi lately or kids movies.

[readinglove]

How far along are you? EDD? 6w6d; EDD is 1/23/18 right now.

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically, the nausea has really amped up the past few days, which I appreciate. It's worse when I'm hungry or right after eating. No puking yet, but my Lucky Charms almost made a re-appearance this morning. Also, tired. So, so tired. I've not been sleeping well at night, which doesn't help. Looking forward to the school year being over and being able to nap! Emotionally, it really depends on the day. Some are better than others. Still have a lot of anxiety and worry, and am trying to work on managing those feelings.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? First ultrasound tomorrow, and praying for a good scan. We've made it past loss milestone 1, and if we make it to next Tuesday, we're past loss milestone 2 and I'll feel much better (I think). 

Any other word vomit to share? I'm just mentally a mess. I want to plan and be hopeful, but I'm also waiting for the other shoe to drop and this to all go away. It's a terrible way to think/feel, and I'm using the mantras a lot. 

GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)? I have the 2nd half of the Once Upon a Time season to catch up on, and DH and I are watching the seasons of The Goldbergs and Parks and Rec that we haven't seen. Songs - Can't Stop the Feeling by Justin Timberlake has been my jam lately.

[cali]

How far along are you? EDD?
28w4d, 8/24

How are you feeling physically and emotionally?
Pretty good in general. Generally just kind of achy and I get tired easily.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones?
Nope. Had an appointment on Fri for a growth u/s and gtt. Everything looked good on the growth u/s. Baby girl is measuring in the 60th percentile which is great because I am at risk​ for iugr due to borderline hypertension. And I passed my GTT! Such a relief.

Any other word vomit to share?
Not at the moment.

GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)?
I started listening to the true crime podcast series Casefile on the East Area Rapist and it is seriously freaking me out. I know it's stuff that happened 30-40 years ago but it's so creepy and they never caught the guy! I don't know why I keep listening but i guess it's just super interesting to hear about the investigation even though it scares me and I feel so bad for everyone involved!

[Atpeace]

How far along are you? EDD?
35w3d, 7/7/17


How are you feeling physically and emotionally?
Physically I feel slow. Emotionally I'm getting really excited. 


Any upcoming appointments or milestones?
I have a scan with MFM on Friday. 


Any other word vomit to share?
We finally got the nursery painted and the furniture put together. I washed clothes and put them away. Now this baby needs a name. I don't know if we're ever going to be able to decide. 


GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)?
I'm watching the Handmaid's Tale. 

[cnf]

16+3, 11/18

I'm doing better. We've passed all our milestones, loss and genetic testing, so emotionally I'm finally feeling connected. Physically I'm doing ok. Nausea is finally gone, but heartburn has shown up in it's place. Some days I have energy, some I don't. But I'm not at the uncomfortable stage yet, so I'll cherish this.

Nothing until my AS in July.

Nothing really right now, but I plan to binge finish seasons I started and never completed; this is us, Jane the virgin, the new season of MFAS, as soon as I'm on summer break in three weeks.

[cnf]

Big hugs ajetter

Yay for a goid ultrasound flippinchica!

Good luck at your NT ldubhawksfan

addymac, pregnancy is not all cupcakes and sunshine. I'm super terrible at being pregnant. It's very uncomfortable in so many ways and I'm an awful complainer. I feel like you can be grateful and love that little life while still openly admitting that this shit is hard. Pregnancy isn't easy and just because you're acknowledging that doesn't make you any less grateful or loving. Hugs.

I hope you get the progesterone you need easternshoregirl. Big hugs.

Good luck with your NIPT Waffle.

I'm sorry you're feeling worried @starzia. Hopefully You start to feel better the closer it gets to her EDD.

I hope you have a reassuring doppler check today officedronette

Congrats on passing you're milestone sarahh. I Hope your appointment helps you to feel more attached, if you're ready.

Hope you had a good scan readinglove.

Grow, baby, grow! cali

Hopefully you guys can settle on a name Atpeace! You're so close!

[jules1614]

15w today!

I'm still not as connected as I wish I could be. Pretty sure I've been feeling kicks for awhile now, but my brain won't fully accept that that's what it is.

Most of our friends have figured it out, it's scary and a relief that it was more "nonchalant" than a big announcement. I plan on making that after my 16w appointment which is next week.

Show-wise not too much- were watching a lot of baseball and hockey. I'm excited for the next season of Orange is the New Black though.

[muscari]

Hi ladies! So good to see you all here, and I'm sorry for having been MIA for the last couple of weeks.. I'm so behind on things here and there, esp in posting myself .. haven't been able to get behind the pc and while I can read on tapatalk, typing on my phone just frustrates the heck out of me with my English and Dutch spellcheck/autocorrect going nuts on me LOL. Also, online drama and real life crisis crap doesn't go together well and it's made me feel really sad and out of place for a while.

How far along are you? EDD? 29w5d, duedate is 17 august 2017

How are you feeling physically and emotionally?
My emotions have been all over the place recently, there's just to much going on in my life at the moment (see 'other word vomit to share' lol). Physically I've been better ;-) but that's to be expected after breaking my ankle two weeks ago. Pregnancy symptom wise things are pretty calm atm.  I do have increased issues with my hips being ohso painful especially while sleeping, need to change position every hour to stay somewhat comfortable (which isn't an easy feat with my broken ankle currently! I so badly wish I could take a walk on occasion but am stuck to either the bed or the wheelchair lol). One thing that freaks me out on occasion are the bouts of BH. Anyone knows a good contraction timer that actually saves your data when you close the app? My MFM asked me to time them and I could do pen&paper but ahh an app seems easier?

Any upcoming appointments or milestones?
I never updated on my previous appointments 2 weeks ago so will do so now! Sorry for the lenght of things! Cardiologist appointment went well enough. Considering the fact I started my maternity leave 6 weeks earlier then expected (see next bit), we decided not to start meds right now after all. Being able to rest whenever I need to will hopefully be enough to keep my ticker under control. MFM appointment and follow up A/S were next. The scan showed that the VSD seen on our A/S had closed up completely so that was great news. They also checked my placenta placement for placenta accreta due to Asherman's Syndrome. There is one area which concerns them, so we've discussed options and plans of action. So far giving birth naturally is still on the table, a surgical team will be on stand-by and if the placenta isn't out completely within 30min after birth I'll go in for surgery. We also discussed that in case do need to go back on heart meds, baby&I will stay in the hospital for an extra 48h after birth for extra monitoring (for baby). Quite a lot to take in all at once but I'm glad they're so pro-active and rather know all the possible options and scenarios beforehand.
Next appointment is my MFM appointment June 19. Prolly have to go in next week or the week after for my anti-D shot (I'm rhesus negative, baby is rhesus positive) since I'll be 30 weeks this Thursday but I haven't heard anything about that yet. Guess I best give them a call...

Any other word vomit to share?
It's been interestig times here at casa muscari. On the 19th of May I learned my contract would be terminated on June 1, completely out of the blue. Yay for extended maternity leave but not so yay for not having a job afterwards. I'm fighting my termination and handed my case over to the union, so far it's been a little ugly and I honestly have no idea how/when it'll end. But I got other things to worry about.. as on the 24th I took a nasty fall and broke my right ankle. Spent half the day at the ER then was admitted to L&D due to contractions. Luckily baby (and my ute/cervix, bw and fluids) checked out okay! Will be in the cast for 6-7 weeks total and am not allowed to put any weight on it for several weeks URGH! Crutches while 29wk pg is an interesting combo esp paired with my heart issues. Am basically on some sort of modified bedrest as I gotte keep my foot up or it will swell like an elephants foot and any overexertion gives me runs of braxton hicks and/or heart issues. Fun times! I sleep in the livingroom and got a wheelchair, and with furniture rearranged a little I can move around freely - MH even made a ramp for me to go outside into the garden no my own as I was going crazy being cooped up. I do struggle with feeling useless and frustrated that all of our/my plans for baby prep have been put on the backburner and I won't be out of my cast until 5weeks before my due date.. Somehow things will work out right?

GTKY: What are you watching or listening to (tv, podcast, songs, anything)?
Just finished watching Designated Survivor and am now debating whether to continue with House of Cards (S2+) or Homeland (S2+) or OITNB (gotte finish up the previous season still, I saw the next one is coming out the 9th). Got plenty of time to watch all the netflix atm LOL.
Listening to my favorite Melissa Horn, Miranda Lambert, Faun, VNV Nation, Muse and Nickelback albums a lot, too. (Yeah I have a broad taste when it comes to music haha)

[ldubhawksfan]

muscari my goodness girl! I'm sorry for all the bumps in the road like your ankle and job. Please take care of yourself!

[muscari]

Just realized the time.. gotte get me some sleep zzzz. Will be back to tag&comment tomorrow!