TFAS 11/15

[westiemom]

I’m so sorry! I suck lately! How are you??

mnj05
baymare
grover
moto
DrHooch
crazycatlady6
twohopes
danib
supermorena

[westiemom]

CD 13 on Femara #3. Waiting on a positive opk! Feeling a little under the weather again this month. I don’t know why I keep getting sick at ovulation! Oh well. Monitoring appt Friday.

[twohopes]

Hi westiemom, and thanks for the check-in.
I am right there with you, waiting on a positive OPK. Trying naturally this month. And next one. Also, a nurse consult on November 22ns to get my protocol for stims and a cycle in January. I had a hysteroscopy 5 days ago that came back all clear and my mock transfer was "the easiest I had done all day", according to my doc. Hopefully things are finally lining up for us.

[westiemom]

Nov 15, 2017 18:13:17 GMT -6 twohopes said:

Hi westiemom, and thanks for the check-in.
I am right there with you, waiting on a positive OPK. Trying naturally this month. And next one. Also, a nurse consult on November 22ns to get my protocol for stims and a cycle in January. I had a hysteroscopy 5 days ago that came back all clear and my mock transfer was "the easiest I had done all day", according to my doc. Hopefully things are finally lining up for us.

I’m glad all is looking good!! GL this cycle!!

[twohopes]

Thanks, westiemom, you too. My ovulation is generally around day 17, so still a bit to go. Sigh.

[mnj05]

westiemom, twohopes, good luck with your cycles!

[mnj05]

I am showing signs of ovulation again so who knows. We just got an unexpected check from our previous mortgage loan holder and I think we'll be using a chunk of that for another FET. I'm not sure just yet though. In the meantime, we'll keep trying naturally, but I'm not hopeful in the least.

[moto]

westiemom - I hope you feel better soon
twohopes - that's great that all your tests went well!
mnj05 - unexpected check? That's amazing! I know what you mean about not being hopeful about trying naturally. We were always "unexplained" IF, so with nothing wrong technically we should have a chance trying naturally... but I just don't believe it would ever work. But I hope you get pleasantly surprised!

AFM, I'm hanging out in beta hell. My numbers rose, but not at the right rate. I had an ultrasound last week where they were able to see a gestational sac, but it was measuring too small and they couldn't see anything else. I go back tomorrow to see if there's a baby in there... if there is, by now we should be able to see it. I have a bad feeling about it and I've been in tears all night. My husband is convinced everything is fine, so I'm trying to catch some of his optimism.

[westiemom]

Nov 15, 2017 20:35:33 GMT -6 moto said:

westiemom - I hope you feel better soon
twohopes - that's great that all your tests went well!
mnj05 - unexpected check? That's amazing! I know what you mean about not being hopeful about trying naturally. We were always "unexplained" IF, so with nothing wrong technically we should have a chance trying naturally... but I just don't believe it would ever work. But I hope you get pleasantly surprised!

AFM, I'm hanging out in beta hell. My numbers rose, but not at the right rate. I had an ultrasound last week where they were able to see a gestational sac, but it was measuring too small and they couldn't see anything else. I go back tomorrow to see if there's a baby in there... if there is, by now we should be able to see it. I have a bad feeling about it and I've been in tears all night. My husband is convinced everything is fine, so I'm trying to catch some of his optimism.

Dang!! How stressful. Praying you see a baby tomorrow. Keep us posted!

[twohopes]

moto , awww. I am sorry that you are crying. I wish I could just reassure that all will be fine, but I know I cannot because the feeling is just awful. I hope the u/s tomorrow does, though!

[supermorena]

moto that is so stressfull! I'm sorry you're going through that right now. Praying for you and Brett eing able to see a baby tomorrow!

AFM, just hanging out in the 2ww after iui. Nothing much to report.

[DrHooch]

Ugh, moto, I'm sorry. I've been there and it is not fun. Hoping against hope for you.

Thanks for the check-in, westiemom.

AFM, it's been rough.


***tw: loss mentioned***

I am still recovering after my latest m/c. This one was harder than the first one - much worse cramping and heavy bleeding that landed me in the ER. And harder mentally, too, since it was a missed m/c I think. Right now I'm not sure I'd classify us as TFAS - I need to recover physically and emotionally for a while.

[mnj05]

moto we are severe MFI and annovulatory on my part. While I'm hopefully it'll ever happen, I'm not confident. And I'm sorry you're in beta hell. I hope tomorrow goes well.

I'm so sorry DrHooch.

[moto]

ultrasound results: They saw the baby measuring right on track with a heartbeat of 133bpm!! I'm completely shocked. My RE said I now have only the normal risk of miscarriage. (As opposed to last week, when she told me it would be wise to prepare emotionally for either outcome.) My IF brain is still worried since it's so early and anything could still happen, but wow - that's a totally different feeling from this morning when I was sure this was all coming to an end.

I also realized I need to stop googling the internet for answers. My betas were so low and slow and I searched what felt like the whole internet looking for success stories with numbers like that, and found way more sad endings than happy ones. At 5w5d they saw an empty sac that measured 3.5mm, and according to medical studies I found on the internet, that was way too small and a very bad sign. And again, I couldn't find success stories. I feel like I caused a lot of my stress by doing all those searches. I had myself absolutely convinced we would only see an empty sac today. Now I'm trying to be zen about this - what will happen will happen. Making myself miserable isn't going to change the outcome, so I need to stop doing it. Hopefully I have learned my lesson.

Thank you all for being there for me and helping me through my anxiety! I've been a basketcase ever since I started preparing for my FET, and you all have really helped. (especially twohopes with all the thyroid advice!) I'll head over to PAIF now... hopefully I get to stay there until July!!

[moto]

DrHooch - I'm so sorry you're having a hard time. Landing in the ER sounds awful and I can't imagine what you're going through mentally on top of physically. Be kind to yourself, and give yourself as long as you need to recover.

[twohopes]

This is fantastic, moto. So, so happy for you!

[supermorena]

DrHooch I'm so sorry for your loss. Be kind to yourself and lean on those around you as you heal both physically and emotionally.

[supermorena]

moto Congrats! That is so awesome! Low and slow betas can really mess with your mind and Dr. Google is no help! I hope the rest of the pregnancy is smooth sailing! How are you feeling?

[westiemom]

Huge hugs DrHooch. I will remove you from the check-in for now. Join back in anytime. 💗

[westiemom]

moto congrats!!!!!!!!

Monitoring appt today went well! Good lining and 2 follicles which is a first. I am sick though so I’m hoping that doesn’t cause problems! Opk was positive this AM so we DTD despite my wanting to die!

[moto]

westiemom - way to be a trooper! I hope it pays off for you!

supermorena - feeling fine, absolutely no symptoms yet. I remember I didn't have any symptoms in my last pregnancy until 8ish weeks, when the nausea hit. And since my hormones are so much lower this time I'm anticipating no symptoms for even longer. So I'm going to try to enjoy it and not read into it!