TW - Intro from a first time mama
Aug 31, 2017 16:35:22 GMT -6
Post by wisco on Aug 31, 2017 16:35:22 GMT -6
Hey ladies: I recently intro'd on the infertility board, and was encouraged to join you here as well. It has taken me some time to come on over, and I'm not sure why. But, I know how important it is to have community support, and I want to be able to support others as well, because, shit...this whole process has been completely unimaginable.
After struggling with infertility, and a few losses (CP and 12 weeks) we got pregnant on a "break cycle" after having a chemical pregnancy that was the result of an IUI. In terms of the what others had struggled with (regarding infertility and grief), I figured we got off easy and although we were so anxious up until late in my third trimester, we were convinced we were actually going to be taking home a baby! All scans were normal, and I was feeling consistent movement until I woke up the morning I was 39 weeks, 1 day. I went in to be monitored, and there was no heartbeat. The little peanut had passed sometime in the night.
After delivery, it was determined that she passed due to a cord accident. Otherwise, she was completely perfect.
We're dealing with our grief by taking it day by day. Guys, you know, it is SO hard. I can't believe all the stuff I took for granted before I knew this pain. It hits me it waves and can literally knock me down with almost no warning. I'm seeing a wonderful therapist, we have a great support system, and MH is getting help too...but I never imagined something could hurt THIS MUCH.
So, I'm here. Let's be here together. No one else really gets it, and I'm thankful that most people never experience this sort of loss.
So, thank you for reading. And thank you for letting me read how you've struggled or found strength or sought comfort. Just reading through the previous threads has helped me realize my feeling are normal. I'm normal, I'm just hurting.
Also, do you find it helpful to read other loss mama's stories in detail? I've written mine out, and although I would be unlikely to post it on the main board (too many identifiable specifics and I don't need people IRL finding the nitty gritty details of my TTCAL journey), I would like to find a way to share it with others who may find it comforting.
Again, thank you. And I am so sorry you are here, but please let me help in anyway I can.
After struggling with infertility, and a few losses (CP and 12 weeks) we got pregnant on a "break cycle" after having a chemical pregnancy that was the result of an IUI. In terms of the what others had struggled with (regarding infertility and grief), I figured we got off easy and although we were so anxious up until late in my third trimester, we were convinced we were actually going to be taking home a baby! All scans were normal, and I was feeling consistent movement until I woke up the morning I was 39 weeks, 1 day. I went in to be monitored, and there was no heartbeat. The little peanut had passed sometime in the night.
After delivery, it was determined that she passed due to a cord accident. Otherwise, she was completely perfect.
We're dealing with our grief by taking it day by day. Guys, you know, it is SO hard. I can't believe all the stuff I took for granted before I knew this pain. It hits me it waves and can literally knock me down with almost no warning. I'm seeing a wonderful therapist, we have a great support system, and MH is getting help too...but I never imagined something could hurt THIS MUCH.
So, I'm here. Let's be here together. No one else really gets it, and I'm thankful that most people never experience this sort of loss.
So, thank you for reading. And thank you for letting me read how you've struggled or found strength or sought comfort. Just reading through the previous threads has helped me realize my feeling are normal. I'm normal, I'm just hurting.
Also, do you find it helpful to read other loss mama's stories in detail? I've written mine out, and although I would be unlikely to post it on the main board (too many identifiable specifics and I don't need people IRL finding the nitty gritty details of my TTCAL journey), I would like to find a way to share it with others who may find it comforting.
Again, thank you. And I am so sorry you are here, but please let me help in anyway I can.
