Post by notmoose on Aug 6, 2017 13:35:31 GMT -6
***Loss mentioned and LC mentioned***
Hi, I am notmoose. I just had my first loss on Wednesday (8/2/17). I was almost 11 weeks. I had had spotting starting at 9 weeks. My doctor had me come in to try to find the heartbeat with the doppler at 9w 4d and 10w 2d, it was never found.
On Wednesday morning I went to hobby lobby to get stuff for my sister's baby shower. I went to the bathroom and there was a good amount of blood. I called the Dr and he wanted me to come in at 1. I went to my appt and he said I was probably miscarrying but he scheduled an appointment for an ultrasound the next day.
***TW GRAPHIC DESCRIPTION***
That night I had very heavy bleeding accompanied by strong cramps/contractions. At 11pm I passed a couple clots the size of my hand that I believe was the placenta and baby. I knew then there was no hope.
I went to my ultrasound the next morning, and like I expected, there was nothing in my uterus save for a few clots. Even though I was expecting this, it absolutely devastated me. I barely left my bed until Saturday.
My doctor did not call to tell me the results of the ultrasound. I called 4 times before I finally got to talk to the doctor on Friday at 3pm (keep in mind I miscarried on Wednesday).
I am absolutely devastated. We tried for 7 months to get pregnant. When we finally got the positive I was ecstatic, so grateful, and couldn't wait. My sister was due 2 months before me. We bought matching outfits, talked about how our babies would be best friends, and planned to get professional photos done. The day I got my ultrasound to confirm my miscarriage she got an ultrasound to find out she was having a baby boy.
Idk how to get through this. I have been drinking my feelings and hiding from my family. My heart is broken and I don't know how to get back to "normal". MH has taken on 100% of kid duty. I can barely make it an hour without crying. I have been drunk for 2 days because I can't stand feeling all my feelings.
How do I move on? How do I stop crying and get back to being myself? How do I be a mom again when my heart is breaking every minute I'm awake?
Hi, I am notmoose. I just had my first loss on Wednesday (8/2/17). I was almost 11 weeks. I had had spotting starting at 9 weeks. My doctor had me come in to try to find the heartbeat with the doppler at 9w 4d and 10w 2d, it was never found.
On Wednesday morning I went to hobby lobby to get stuff for my sister's baby shower. I went to the bathroom and there was a good amount of blood. I called the Dr and he wanted me to come in at 1. I went to my appt and he said I was probably miscarrying but he scheduled an appointment for an ultrasound the next day.
***TW GRAPHIC DESCRIPTION***
That night I had very heavy bleeding accompanied by strong cramps/contractions. At 11pm I passed a couple clots the size of my hand that I believe was the placenta and baby. I knew then there was no hope.
I went to my ultrasound the next morning, and like I expected, there was nothing in my uterus save for a few clots. Even though I was expecting this, it absolutely devastated me. I barely left my bed until Saturday.
My doctor did not call to tell me the results of the ultrasound. I called 4 times before I finally got to talk to the doctor on Friday at 3pm (keep in mind I miscarried on Wednesday).
I am absolutely devastated. We tried for 7 months to get pregnant. When we finally got the positive I was ecstatic, so grateful, and couldn't wait. My sister was due 2 months before me. We bought matching outfits, talked about how our babies would be best friends, and planned to get professional photos done. The day I got my ultrasound to confirm my miscarriage she got an ultrasound to find out she was having a baby boy.
Idk how to get through this. I have been drinking my feelings and hiding from my family. My heart is broken and I don't know how to get back to "normal". MH has taken on 100% of kid duty. I can barely make it an hour without crying. I have been drunk for 2 days because I can't stand feeling all my feelings.
How do I move on? How do I stop crying and get back to being myself? How do I be a mom again when my heart is breaking every minute I'm awake?