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August TTC
Aug 14, 2020 12:30:12 GMT -6
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Post by robotsvswrestlers on Aug 14, 2020 12:30:12 GMT -6
I blame my monster kids and my H working too many hours! To be fair, I feel like I have been waiting forever for your first ultrasound! Girl same. My anxiety was being an Asshole last few days and I was spiraling on ectopic pregnancies. I just need to see everything is all right. I have no chill whatsoever. I wish I could be like a naive 25 year old, pee on a stick, and be ecstatic bc you don’t even know everything that could go wrong. We all have been through too much to feel that way. And it’s sucks.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2020 12:31:27 GMT -6
I blame my monster kids and my H working too many hours! To be fair, I feel like I have been waiting forever for your first ultrasound! Girl same. My anxiety was being an Asshole last few days and I was spiraling on ectopic pregnancies. I just need to see everything is all right. I have no chill whatsoever. anxiety is so fun. i had a scan this week but i scheduled a $$ scan for next week and i have another scan scheduled for 2 weeks from now 😂
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August TTC
Aug 14, 2020 12:32:30 GMT -6
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Post by miawallace on Aug 14, 2020 12:32:30 GMT -6
Girl same. My anxiety was being an Asshole last few days and I was spiraling on ectopic pregnancies. I just need to see everything is all right. I have no chill whatsoever. anxiety is so fun. i had a scan this week but i scheduled a $$ scan for next week and i have another scan scheduled for 2 weeks from now 😂 My RE u/s scan is $275 and when the coordinator told me I didn’t even blink. I’ll take 5 of those. ::::looks at bank account::: 3 please.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2020 12:33:41 GMT -6
anxiety is so fun. i had a scan this week but i scheduled a $$ scan for next week and i have another scan scheduled for 2 weeks from now 😂 My RE u/s scan is $275 and when the coordinator told me I didn’t even blink. I’ll take 5 of those. ::::looks at bank account::: 3 please. i just laughed out loud. it’s fucking real though. “can i afford it?” no “book me 3!!” just in case.
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August TTC
Aug 14, 2020 13:08:52 GMT -6
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Post by miawallace on Aug 14, 2020 13:08:52 GMT -6
My RE u/s scan is $275 and when the coordinator told me I didn’t even blink. I’ll take 5 of those. ::::looks at bank account::: 3 please. i just laughed out loud. it’s fucking real though. “can i afford it?” no “book me 3!!” just in case. Monday’s scan will hurt my wallet for sure. To be honest, I would have skipped it had my anxiety not be acting a hoe this week and waited for my OB scan that I can afford. Lol - which is the following Monday. It hurts me to pay this much for anything. I was crossing everything the IUI worked because I don’t think we would have had enough to do another one. I also hurt when I hear about IUI prices in other state’s. Sooo cheap compared to Los Angeles.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2020 13:22:19 GMT -6
i just laughed out loud. it’s fucking real though. “can i afford it?” no “book me 3!!” just in case. Monday’s scan will hurt my wallet for sure. To be honest, I would have skipped it had my anxiety not be acting a hoe this week and waited for my OB scan that I can afford. Lol - which is the following Monday. It hurts me to pay this much for anything. I was crossing everything the IUI worked because I don’t think we would have had enough to do another one. I also hurt when I hear about IUI prices in other state’s. Sooo cheap compared to Los Angeles. girl. i take back everything i said. my RE + scans are free... my private scan next week is $45. and IUI only cost $200 including meds and scans. let me venmo you money omg 😭
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August TTC
Aug 14, 2020 13:27:50 GMT -6
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Post by miawallace on Aug 14, 2020 13:27:50 GMT -6
Monday’s scan will hurt my wallet for sure. To be honest, I would have skipped it had my anxiety not be acting a hoe this week and waited for my OB scan that I can afford. Lol - which is the following Monday. It hurts me to pay this much for anything. I was crossing everything the IUI worked because I don’t think we would have had enough to do another one. I also hurt when I hear about IUI prices in other state’s. Sooo cheap compared to Los Angeles. girl. i take back everything i said. my RE + scans are free... my private scan next week is $45. and IUI only cost $200 including meds and scans. let me venmo you money omg 😭 Giiirl. Just the IUI package was $1395. Didn’t include meds. First baseline was $150 oooooonly because my OB referred me to her. I have a spreadsheet. Plus also the hella’ expensive parking costs just to see them. I was able to get my cd3 bloodwork and HSG at my ob. Oh I forgot urologist for my husband - even with insurance was something like $150 plus his bloodwork was $90. I’m going to need a sugar daddy after this.
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August TTC
Aug 14, 2020 13:32:54 GMT -6
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Post by miawallace on Aug 14, 2020 13:32:54 GMT -6
I know lots of folks have paid more for more treatment. It’s just bummed out at the costs in Los Angeles. But also my RE is really good and I’m glad I paid what I paid with her because she knows her shit.
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August TTC
Aug 14, 2020 14:34:38 GMT -6
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Post by robotsvswrestlers on Aug 14, 2020 14:34:38 GMT -6
miawallace you’re paying 100% OOP? your insurance isn’t being billed for this this ultrasound? Obviously it might be different, but for me, once I got a positive beta, it all got billed normally through insurance. It’s no longer infertility treatment once you are pregnant. So the costs got applied toward my deductible.
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August TTC
Aug 14, 2020 14:37:49 GMT -6
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Post by miawallace on Aug 14, 2020 14:37:49 GMT -6
miawallace you’re paying 100% OOP? your insurance isn’t being billed for this this ultrasound? Obviously it might be different, but for me, once I got a positive beta, it all got billed normally through insurance. It’s no longer infertility treatment once you are pregnant. So the costs got applied toward my deductible. No, because I’m tied to Kaiser for health insurance. Theyre special snowflakes with out of network stuff. But the our regular insurance doesn’t cover fertility stuff, sooooo we had to go private. My Re is completely out of network. My next weeks’ US is covered because it’s through them. I only got that Initial discount because my RE use to work at Kaiser and has those loose ties with them.
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August TTC
Aug 14, 2020 14:38:23 GMT -6
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Post by onyx on Aug 14, 2020 14:38:23 GMT -6
anxiety is so fun. i had a scan this week but i scheduled a $$ scan for next week and i have another scan scheduled for 2 weeks from now 😂 My RE u/s scan is $275 and when the coordinator told me I didn’t even blink. I’ll take 5 of those. ::::looks at bank account::: 3 please. $275!? That’s it!? Mine after insurance were $586. I’d be loading up.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 17, 2020 7:41:07 GMT -6
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Post by robotsvswrestlers on Aug 17, 2020 8:45:26 GMT -6
I was wondering the same thing last week. Hope you’re all good donnameagle!!!
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Post by robotsvswrestlers on Aug 17, 2020 8:48:13 GMT -6
Haven’t peed on anything yet and I’m getting nervous. Hoping to hold out until Wednesday. Had some cramping Friday/Saturday which would like up with implantation. I did notice this weekend my sense of smell is super heightened. Hopefully that means something? Usually by now (10dpo) I feel like I’m out of the game but I don’t.
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Post by donnameagle on Aug 17, 2020 8:53:55 GMT -6
About a month ago I made it a goal to stay off my phone because my usage was sky fucking high. Like, ungodly amount and it wasn't good for me. So I cut this place and removed some other social media apps from my phone (bye bye tik tok lol)
I do google this place and check in on TTC a few times a week though to see how you ladies are doing. I am so happy for you all! (and worried about onyx).
I am 12dpo and stark white so I just stopped progesterone. On to cycle 5. I would be lying if I wasn't disappointed and spent yesterday looking up some masters degrees to pursue instead. I know how dramatic that sounds but I just turned 34 and H and I have been trying since I was 31. Multiple losses and a stillbirth and now its taking months and months to even get a positive. I'm just... not in a great place with it and I am physically healthier than I have ever been.
Considering calling my RE, but she had said give it 6 months and then call her. Because after all, she was treating me for recurrent pregnancy loss, not infertility. But a few more months of this and we may just slide over to that category as well.
Fuck it all. I'm getting my masters. LOL.
ETA: cycle 4. So yes, a tad dramatic. I'll admit.
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Post by robotsvswrestlers on Aug 17, 2020 9:51:28 GMT -6
Thanks for the update donnameagle! I relate to the mental struggle so much. You do whatever you need to do.
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Post by donnameagle on Aug 17, 2020 9:52:26 GMT -6
Thanks for the update donnameagle ! I relate to the mental struggle so much. You do whatever you need to do. If you don't feel "out" that is really exciting!! I have felt out this entire cycle.
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Post by pbandj714 on Aug 17, 2020 10:31:01 GMT -6
Welp MH panicked himself into not wanting to try anymore because of everything that could go wrong/covid/you name it. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't devastated. He knows it and hates that I'm feeling this way but can't change how he feels either so we're at somewhat of an impass. If you'll have me, I'll be here cheering you on...hoping I can join again sometime.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 17, 2020 11:07:30 GMT -6
ugh donnameagle i was hoping for much better news. i'm so sorry. it truly is the worst kind of mind fuck and i think getting your masters is a great idea! but i'm also all for being extremely dramatic.
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Post by mothafuckinteatime on Aug 17, 2020 11:09:17 GMT -6
CD1 started unusually early this month and seems ridiculously light. I started yesterday for a 24 day cycle vs 28.
I’m usually really heavy the first few days and H and I had 1 encounter during my FW that has me wondering if this is implantation bleeding. 😬
I’m hoping not. Next month would be way better timing. 😂
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Post by willow on Aug 17, 2020 11:14:22 GMT -6
I'm a dirty lurker of this board since I don't have any plans on TTC any future children but I wanted you all to know that I am following all of your journeys and rooting for you all. And donnameagle I admire your restraint but you are missed around here.
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August TTC
Aug 17, 2020 11:19:52 GMT -6
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Post by miawallace on Aug 17, 2020 11:19:52 GMT -6
donnameagle - you’re one of my favorites. Sorry it’s been tough. I resent the time restraints women get once they hit their 30’s. I wish we didn’t feel that time pressure. I felt it once I hit 35 and I had spent almost 3 years trying and not being able to turn anything positive and damn that shit gets to you. It’s so discouraging. Hugs.
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August TTC
Aug 17, 2020 11:20:10 GMT -6
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Post by miawallace on Aug 17, 2020 11:20:10 GMT -6
CD1 started unusually early this month and seems ridiculously light. I started yesterday for a 24 day cycle vs 28. I’m usually really heavy the first few days and H and I had 1 encounter during my FW that has me wondering if this is implantation bleeding. 😬 I’m hoping not. Next month would be way better timing. 😂 Did you test?
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August TTC
Aug 17, 2020 11:20:36 GMT -6
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Post by miawallace on Aug 17, 2020 11:20:36 GMT -6
I’m sitting down waiting to see the RE. I’m nervous and might puke from the hormones and nervousness.
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August TTC
Aug 17, 2020 11:21:39 GMT -6
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Post by miawallace on Aug 17, 2020 11:21:39 GMT -6
Welp MH panicked himself into not wanting to try anymore because of everything that could go wrong/covid/you name it. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't devastated. He knows it and hates that I'm feeling this way but can't change how he feels either so we're at somewhat of an impass. If you'll have me, I'll be here cheering you on...hoping I can join again sometime. Ugh that sucks. I hope it’s just a few months. This whole year is messing with everyone.
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August TTC
Aug 17, 2020 11:35:05 GMT -6
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Post by robotsvswrestlers on Aug 17, 2020 11:35:05 GMT -6
I’m sitting down waiting to see the RE. I’m nervous and might puke from the hormones and nervousness. Good luck!!!!!
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Post by Deleted on Aug 17, 2020 11:38:14 GMT -6
I’m sitting down waiting to see the RE. I’m nervous and might puke from the hormones and nervousness. oh fuck oh FUCK. please keep us posted on that BABY!!
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Post by mothafuckinteatime on Aug 17, 2020 11:39:37 GMT -6
CD1 started unusually early this month and seems ridiculously light. I started yesterday for a 24 day cycle vs 28. I’m usually really heavy the first few days and H and I had 1 encounter during my FW that has me wondering if this is implantation bleeding. 😬 I’m hoping not. Next month would be way better timing. 😂 Did you test? Not yet. I will in the morning.
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Post by donnameagle on Aug 17, 2020 11:54:19 GMT -6
donnameagle - you’re one of my favorites. Sorry it’s been tough. I resent the time restraints women get once they hit their 30’s. I wish we didn’t feel that time pressure. I felt it once I hit 35 and I had spent almost 3 years trying and not being able to turn anything positive and damn that shit gets to you. It’s so discouraging. Hugs. Man 30's is a weird time man. I feel amazing physically and mentally! And like I could take on anything. I'm training for a triathlon and H and I are obsessed with the tough mudder stuff too (whenever that returns). And yet. When it comes to a baby. Man, I have zero faith in myself.
GOOD LUCK AT YOUR APPT!!!!!
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Post by mothafuckinteatime on Aug 17, 2020 11:54:23 GMT -6
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