PGAL Check-in 2/12

[mattsgirl2004]

Hello! The PGAL check in is posted on Mondays. If it is Monday and you would like to post it, please feel free.

How far along are you? EDD?

How are you feeling physically and emotionally?

Any upcoming appointments or milestones?

Any other word vomit to share?

QotW: Any Valentine's Day plans?

[mattsgirl2004]

How far along are you? EDD?
32 weeks, RCS April 4th

How are you feeling physically and emotionally?
Physically I have been miserable. Everything hurts and the carpal tunnel in both hands has been getting worse. 51 more days to go.

I had a freak-out moment this weekend when baby's movements were slow, sluggish, or just non-existent. He started to move more last night on into this morning. So, I'm a little less anxious.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones?
OB appointment tomorrow morning

Any other word vomit to share?

QotW: Any Valentine's Day plans?
We keep things pretty low-key. DH and I will just exchange cards and maybe candy.

[Speedy]

How far along are you? EDD? 20w2d. June 30

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically I'm just tired a lot. Heartburn is pretty bad.
Emotionally I'm doing great today =) See below

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? Just had my anatomy scan today! I have a follow up next week because they couldn't get good pictures of the heart

Any other word vomit to share? Found out we're having a boy!! The tech isn't allowed to say but pointed it out at first. It wasn't super obvious, but then she had me go for a pee to try to get him to change position and he had his legs up and I would have had to be blind to miss it. Also, they booked me for 10, which is when he starts moving quite a bit, which I warned the tech. About 20 minutes in she's having trouble getting the head measurements because he's moving so much and she goes "Well, you did warn me" lol

QotW: Any Valentine's Day plans? Not as of yet. Maybe a movie this weekend.

[flyliceandcoffee]

How far along are you? EDD? 9/10 - 10w (although measuring at 9w2d according to the last u/s).

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Generally not too bad for the most part. I've learned to drink my water slowly and to eat slowly as well so that's helping the nausea. Emotionally...I'm up and down. I had a little bit of spotting again on Sat night so of course my brain went to oh shit. But then it went away so.....

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? Next appt is the 21st so one more week...

Any other word vomit to share? Spotting seems to be my arch enemy this time around. So far it's been super minimal, but it's such a mind fuck. The ONLY time I ever spotted with previous pregnancies was when I was starting to miscarry so to spot but then have it go away after a couple hours is screwing with my head.

QotW: Any Valentine's Day plans? I bought a triple berry pie to put in the oven for dessert after the kids go to bed. That's it. We don't celebrate valentine's day usually. I just wanted the pie hahahah

[sunshiney]

How far along are you? EDD? 4 weeks 5 days - due 10/17/18

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically, tired with some nausea. Emotionally, peaceful, content, and happy, with moments of overwhelming excitement.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? Beta #3 tomorrow - first two were low but doubling well, so I'm really counting on this one to relieve some worry.

Any other word vomit to share? I expected to be scared sh*tless but instead I'm so hopeful and confident. Not sure why. But really trying to enjoy every moment.

QotW: Any Valentine's Day plans? I had big plans to do cheese and chocolate fondues at home. But now that sounds like way too much work. So probably ice cream. And if RE gives me the go ahead, maybe sexy time (I miss it! But had light spotting so am on Endometrin and put myself on pelvic rest until RE tells me otherwise).

[mirabelle]

flyliceandcoffee that pie sounds so good!

How far along are you? EDD?
10w5d 9/5

How are you feeling physically and emotionally?
Physically like I’m in the first tri. Emotions have been very up/down.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones?
Thursday

Any other word vomit to share?
I had a moment this weekend where someone said something to me about a newborn of someone I barely know and I just kind of thought it was insensitive to even mention to me. And the way it was mentioned, meh I’m probably overreacting, but it stung.

I’ve also had a few moments of not being able to catch my breath, almost like a panic attack (I’ve never had one before) over this pregnancy and my last pregnancy. This Thursday appointment can’t come soon enough for some peace of mind.

QotW: Any Valentine's Day plans?
We splurged this weekend and had a really nice dinner so I called that our Valentine’s Day dinner, that’s about as exciting as it gets this year.

[kam3100]

How far along are you? EDD? 16w, 07/30

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically just tired, headaches every other day and still vomiting occasionally.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? Check up next week.

Any other word vomit to share? I’ve gained a lot of weight already, so I’m expecting a lecture. My thyroid levels are off and honestly, I’ve been eating what sounds good. I should really stop this terrible eating though.

QotW: Any Valentine's Day plans? I told DH not to do anything and I got him a card. Keeping it low key.

[mattsgirl2004]

flyliceandcoffee I'm sorry for the spotting scare again. I've had spotting with all 10 of my pregnancies except one (which ended up being a loss). Just remember that's it's not always indicative of a loss. Although, I know it's hard to not let your mind go there. I hope the 21st gets here fast and gives you extra reassurance. ❤

mirabelle Hoping Thursday's appointment brings you some extra peace of mind. I'm sorry for the insensitive comment that was said to you. Lots of hugs. ❤

[mattsgirl2004]

sunshiney FX for some strong, doubling betas tomorrow!

[snowyowl]

How far along are you? EDD?
39+4, 2/15

How are you feeling physically and emotionally?
About how you’d expect. I’m large and uncomfortable and annoyed by everything. I’m getting up to pee at least four times a night. It doesn’t help that I’m crazy thirsty all the time.
Emotionally I’m ok... impatient yes, but also doing kick counts at least twice a day because otherwise I have the memory of the goldfish and I get to the end of the day and panic because I can’t recall if I have felt anything. It’s amazing really.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones?
Due date on Thursday, doctors appt on Friday. I can schedule an induction then if I want to (I want to). But they make you wait until 41 weeks minimum at my practice. It’s only one extra week, but it feels like ages!

Any other word vomit to share?
I’ve stopped fake smiling when people at work give me the “still here, huh?!” comments and instead I am basically baring my teeth at them like an angry badger. They seem to be getting the hint.

QotW: Any Valentine's Day plans?
Possibly a baby? Otherwise DH is working every night until Saturday so I’ll probably be hanging out with family. Very romantic.

[snowyowl]

((Hugs)) to those dealing with spotting. It’s the worst, but really could mean nothing.
LC mentioned... I spotted so much with my son that I thought it was a chemical pregnancy for a week.

[mirabelle]

Speedy congrats on reaching the halfway mark and finding out you’re having a boy, so exciting! Did you have a feeling before finding out?

[Speedy]

Feb 12, 2018 16:01:04 GMT -6 mirabelle said:

Speedy congrats on reaching the halfway mark and finding out you’re having a boy, so exciting! Did you have a feeling before finding out?

I sort of did, but that's got more to do with the fact that my husband's family is mostly boys. I didn't really care about what it was, just so long as it was healthy, which he is :-) small, but healthy

[notmoose]

How far along are you? EDD?
17w 5d. 7/19

How are you feeling physically and emotionally?
Physically: Nausea has made a reappearance after a couple weeks without it. Headaches and back pain.
Emotionally: I have my A/S on Thursday. I'm so excited for it but I also keep thinking something is going to be wrong. *TW just in case* I had a dream a couple weeks ago that I had my AS and miscarried the next day. So that's in my head.
I just want everything to be okay.


Any upcoming appointments or milestones?
Anatomy scan!

Any other word vomit to share?

QotW: Any Valentine's Day plans?
I told MH I want to go to our favorite restaurant (hibachi) on Saturday. Besides that, nothing really. I always set the kids/MH V day goodies out on the table so they see it in the A.M.

[notmoose]

Speedy congratulations!

[notmoose]

flyliceandcoffee I'm sorry about the spotting. It's such a mind fuck. I've had spotting 3/4 of my pregnancies. I still check the TP every time I go, it just ducks with your head. I hope ypur appointment goes perfectly and gives you some reassurance.

sunshiney I hope your betas are great!

mirabelle sorry about the insensitive comment.

[mirabelle]

notmoose hope Thursday comes quickly for you!

[Rama]

How far along are you? EDD? 33,4

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically, I'm feeling okay. I get winded pretty easy and if I don't get enough sleep I'm a grouch, but I think that's all pretty normal stuff. Emotionally, I'm doing a lot better after talking to my MFM yesterday. She's a godsend.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? NST today

Any other word vomit to share? So the nurse that spoiled the sex last week is in for the wrath of my perinatologist's office. At least two reports are going to her supervisor and my MFM is going to make sure she's never going to be doing my care again. I'm really happy about that because we seriously just do not jive even a little. I'm sort of surprised that she still has a job with her bedside manner, but I can also recognize her value for some patients. None of those qualities are just something that works for me. I also get to pick my induction date (assuming baby doesn't come before due date) and work end date! Now I just have to figure out when I would want to GTFO from here. Any advice?

QotW: Any Valentine's Day plans? MrRama and I are going to our usual date spot. We've been going for nearly 15 years.

All the big, squishy hugs mirabelle. I'm rooting so hard for you all. Sorry that you had to deal with the insensitive comment. Hopefully they realized what kind of horse's ass they were being later.

[Speedy]

Feb 13, 2018 9:10:21 GMT -6 notmoose said:

Speedy congratulations!

Thanks hunny! I'll keep my FX for you that everything looks good at your scan too =)

[kam3100]

Feb 13, 2018 13:27:35 GMT -6 Rama said:

How far along are you? EDD? 33,4

How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically, I'm feeling okay. I get winded pretty easy and if I don't get enough sleep I'm a grouch, but I think that's all pretty normal stuff. Emotionally, I'm doing a lot better after talking to my MFM yesterday. She's a godsend.

Any upcoming appointments or milestones? NST today

Any other word vomit to share? So the nurse that spoiled the sex last week is in for the wrath of my perinatologist's office. At least two reports are going to her supervisor and my MFM is going to make sure she's never going to be doing my care again. I'm really happy about that because we seriously just do not jive even a little. I'm sort of surprised that she still has a job with her bedside manner, but I can also recognize her value for some patients. None of those qualities are just something that works for me. I also get to pick my induction date (assuming baby doesn't come before due date) and work end date! Now I just have to figure out when I would want to GTFO from here. Any advice?

QotW: Any Valentine's Day plans? MrRama and I are going to our usual date spot. We've been going for nearly 15 years.

All the big, squishy hugs mirabelle. I'm rooting so hard for you all. Sorry that you had to deal with the insensitive comment. Hopefully they realized what kind of horse's ass they were being later.

I’ve been stalking you a bit and felt all
kinds of rage in your behalf and I’m glad your your doctor is on your side! Fuck dude, you’ve been through enough, you don’t need to deal with a shitty nurse.

For me, finding an end date is based on my projects and when I’d find the least stress of worrying about work stuff while I’m gone. I don’t know if you will have that though. One thing I wish I did have with last pregnancy was more alone/quiet time by myself before baby was born. I started maternity leave a week before she was due, but she came the next day so I never got that quiet time. It’s really hard to pick a date, but hopefully this novel is more helpful than not

[snowyowl]

Ugh, Rama, that’s so crappy someone did that! I guess things can slip out, but the doctors, nurses, and midwives I’ve seen have ALL asked if I know before saying anything about the sex.

[Rama]

Feb 13, 2018 14:44:10 GMT -6 snowyowl said:

Ugh, Rama , that’s so crappy someone did that! I guess things can slip out, but the doctors, nurses, and midwives I’ve seen have ALL asked if I know before saying anything about the sex.

All of mine have, too.  Except her.  She was generally just a horrible nurse to deal with all around.

[notmoose]

Feb 13, 2018 14:46:13 GMT -6 Rama said:

Feb 13, 2018 14:44:10 GMT -6 snowyowl said:

Ugh, Rama , that’s so crappy someone did that! I guess things can slip out, but the doctors, nurses, and midwives I’ve seen have ALL asked if I know before saying anything about the sex.

All of mine have, too.  Except her.  She was generally just a horrible nurse to deal with all around.

I'm so mad for you! I am going to be team green and that's one of my worries, that someone will blab. Ugh I am so pissed on your behalf. I'm sorry and I hope you don't have to even see her face again!

[Rama]

Feb 14, 2018 8:58:56 GMT -6 notmoose said:

Feb 13, 2018 14:46:13 GMT -6 Rama said:

All of mine have, too.  Except her.  She was generally just a horrible nurse to deal with all around.

I'm so mad for you! I am going to be team green and that's one of my worries, that someone will blab. Ugh I am so pissed on your behalf. I'm sorry and I hope you don't have to even see her face again!

My best advice is to always remind them that you don't know every single time they check or give you results on anything that might have sex info, whether they ask or not. Usually they will, but mine have always said they'd rather you be obnoxious than make a mistake. (With one exception, obviously.)

[notmoose]

I'm having a rough morning. I woke up from another dream about losing the baby. This one was so realistic and horrible. I'm afraid I'm going to go into my ultrasound tomorrow and there will be something wrong. I keep waiting for bad news at every appt. I feel like I can't get too excited for this baby. Like I can't believe it's going to be okay or something. I don't buy anything, I haven't done anything in the nursery, I haven't made plans for anything. We don't have a nickname for the baby like we did the rest of my pregnancies. We just don't talk about it that much.

I love this baby. So much. But I'm afraid to be attached to it when I know it can be taken away.

[Rama]

Feb 14, 2018 10:34:12 GMT -6 notmoose said:

I'm having a rough morning. I woke up from another dream about losing the baby. This one was so realistic and horrible. I'm afraid I'm going to go into my ultrasound tomorrow and there will be something wrong. I keep waiting for bad news at every appt. I feel like I can't get too excited for this baby. Like I can't believe it's going to be okay or something. I don't buy anything, I haven't done anything in the nursery, I haven't made plans for anything. We don't have a nickname for the baby like we did the rest of my pregnancies. We just don't talk about it that much.

I love this baby. So much. But I'm afraid to be attached to it when I know it can be taken away.

I know these feelings.  They are normal, you aren't doing your baby a disservice.  You love them.  So much it hurts.  And that's why you're so scared.  It's okay to be distant, if that's what you need to do.  For me, it's getting better.  Be gentle with yourself and give yourself some grace to feel this way for now.  It's not forever.  Pregnancy dreams are the worst.

[Speedy]

*hugs notmoose* this was me all last week. I hurried MH out the door so we wound up being pretty early, and then I was so nervous sitting in the waiting area for the ultrasound that I was nearly in tears, although I tried to act like I wasn't. I even refused to look at the screen at first.

When my mom told me she was going to buy the crib, I really wanted to tell her to wait, and the only thing I've bought for him so far is the outfit for the newborn shoot.

All of these feelings that we're having are completely normal, even the dreams. Dreams are our brains way of echoing what our minds are preoccupied with, so if you're feeling nervous, it's taking that and bringing it out in the worst way possible. Not that that really helps, but I think it's better than thinking it's some sort of omen.

Maybe try to focus on something else for a little while, even if it means that you zone out and don't think of anything. That's really the only thing that helped me.

[flyliceandcoffee]

hugs notmoose. I totally get this. I'm not as far along, but H and I have had MAYBE 5 conversations total in the last 2 months about this pregnancy. It's like we can't bring ourselves to really even acknowledge that this is happening because of the fear of how it'll end up. I hope your appt tomorrow will help ease your mind and give you the confidence you need and deserve that everything will be okay!

[notmoose]

Rama Speedy flyliceandcoffee
Thank you, it really really helps to have you ladies to vent to and hear that I'm not alone. It's been such a mind fuck. This pregnancy has just felt so very different because I am afraid of what could happen. I knew loss was sad before, but I never personally felt it. Now, it seems like it tries to steal all my joy.

I distracted myself by getting some groceries for dinner and dessert tonight. I'm making ribs, white cheddar Mac n cheese, and chocolate fondue. So, it's taking a lot of time for prep and cooking and it's helping.

Thank you again, idk what I'd do without y'all.

[Speedy]

notmoose, any update?